An Obvious Waste Of Time.

MOVED.

2008-06-27T19:36:00.003+08:00

With me being the nonsensical moron that I am, I have decided to join Project Blook and sell my soul to this cause.

Well, not exactly.

But I’ll be blogging with a purpose now; that is, in the far-fetched hope that it might one day become a blog-book – hence the term blook.

The one question is, does anybody even WANT to read it?

I wonder.

Oh well. I’ve set it up and all, but I’ve yet to plant the maiden post seed in the belly of the blog. You can still tag, but click on the comments link – I don’t wanna use a tagboard any longer. Too many annoying ads.

So, goodbye, people of the world, and greet this waste of e-space .

See ya.

Some Birthday Calculator Report.

2008-06-21T11:18:00.002+08:00

10 February 1992

Your date of conception was on or about 20 May 1991 which was a Monday.

You were born on a Monday
under the astrological sign Aquarius.
Your Life path number is 6.

Your fortune cookie reads:
Your money worries are over! Your new job will bring you a huge increase in income.

Life Path Compatibility:
You are most compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 3, 6 & 9.
You should get along well with those with the Life Path numbers 2, 4, 8, 11 & 22.
You are least compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 1, 5 & 7.

The Julian calendar date of your birth is 2448662.5.
The golden number for 1992 is 17.
The epact number for 1992 is 25.
The year 1992 was a leap year.

Your birthday falls into the Chinese year beginning 2/4/1992 and ending 1/22/1993.
You were born in the Chinese year of the Monkey.

Your Native American Zodiac sign is Otter; your plant is Fern.

You were born in the Egyptian month of Parmuthy, the fourth month of the season of Poret (Emergence - Fertile soil).

Your date of birth on the Hebrew calendar is 7 AdarI 5752.
Or if you were born after sundown then the date is 8 AdarI 5752.

The Mayan Calendar long count date of your birthday is 12.18.18.14.18 which is
12 baktun 18 katun 18 tun 14 uinal 18 kin

The Hijra (Islamic Calendar) date of your birth is Monday, 6 Sha'ban 1412 (1412-8-6).

The date of Easter on your birth year was Sunday, 19 April 1992.
The date of Orthodox Easter on your birth year was Sunday, 26 April 1992.
The date of Ash Wednesday (the first day of Lent) on your birth year was Wednesday 4 March 1992.
The date of Whitsun (Pentecost Sunday) in the year of your birth was Sunday 7 June 1992.
The date of Whisuntide in the year of your birth was Sunday 14 June 1992.
The date of Rosh Hashanah in the year of your birth was Monday, 28 September 1992.
The date of Passover in the year of your birth was Saturday, 18 April 1992.
The date of Mardi Gras on your birth year was Tuesday 3 March 1992.

As of 6/20/2008 11:09:45 PM EDT
You are 16 years old.
You are 196 months old.
You are 853 weeks old.
You are 5,975 days old.
You are 143,423 hours old.
You are 8,605,389 minutes old.
You are 516,323,385 seconds old.

Celebrities who share your birthday:

Lance Berkman (1976)	Laura Dern (1967)	Cliff Burton (1962)
George Stephanopoulos (1961)	Greg Norman (1955)	Mark Spitz (1950)
Roberta Flack (1939)	Robert Wagner (1930)	Leontyne Price (1927)
Lon Chaney, Jr. (1906)	Bertolt Brecht (1898)	Jimmy Durante (1893)
Boris Pasternak (1890)

Top songs of 1992

End of the Road by Boyz II Men	Baby Got Back by Sir Mix-a-Lot
Jump by Kris Kross	Save the Best for Last by Vanessa Williams
Baby-Baby-Baby by TLC	Tears In Heaven by Eric Clapton
My Lovin' (You're Never Gonna Get It) by En Vogue	Under the Bridge by Red Hot Chili Peppers
All 4 Love by Color Me Badd	Just Another Day by Jon Secada

Your age is the equivalent of a dog that is 2.3385518590998 years old. (Life's just a big chewy bone for you!)

Your lucky day is Saturday.
Your lucky number is 4 & 8.
Your ruling planet(s) is Saturn & Uranus.
Your lucky dates are 1st, 10th, 19th, 28th.
Your opposition sign is Leo.
Your opposition number(s) is 1.

Today is not one of your lucky days!

There are 235 days till your next birthday
on which your cake will have 17 candles.

Those 17 candles produce 17 BTUs,
or 4,284 calories of heat (that's only 4.2840 food Calories!) .
You can boil 1.94 US ounces of water with that many candles.

In 1992 there were approximately 4.1 million births in the US.
In 1992 the US population was approximately 248,709,873 people, 70.3 persons per square mile.
In 1992 in the US there were 2,362,000 marriages (9.2%) and 1,215,000 divorces (4.8%)
In 1992 in the US there were approximately 2,148,000 deaths (8.6 per 1000)
In the US a new person is born approximately every 8 seconds.
In the US one person dies approximately every 12 seconds.

In 1992 the population of Australia was approximately 17,581,284.
In 1992 there were approximately 264,151 births in Australia.
In 1992 in Australia there were approximately 114,752 marriages and 45,729 divorces.
In 1992 in Australia there were approximately 123,660 deaths.

Your birthstone is Amethyst

The Mystical properties of Amethyst

Amethyst is used to increase spiritually

Some lists consider these stones to be your birthstone. (Birthstone lists come from Jewelers, Tibet, Ayurvedic Indian medicine, and other sources)

Bloodstone, Onyx, Moonstone

Your birth tree is

Cedar, the Confidence
Of rare beauty, knows how to adapt, likes luxury, of good health not in the least shy, tends to look down on others, self-confident, determined, impatient, wants to impress others, many talents, industrious, healthy, optimism, waiting for the one true love, able to make quick decisions.

There are 188 days till Christmas 2008!
There are 201 days till Orthodox Christmas!

The moon's phase on the day you were
born was waxing crescent.

Copyright © 2006 Paul R. Sadowski (http://www.paulsadowski.com)

DeviantArt Quiz Generator!

2008-06-20T13:47:00.003+08:00

So I came across this quiz generator on Deviant Art.

Pick 10 people:

Natalie

Joanna

Azryl

Bernadette

Shiren

Shoba

Serinder

Siaw Ee

Nadiah

If Joanna were to play in a movie, what would her character be?

She would be he schizophrenic little girl who goes around butchering random people on the street, all the while laughing at random objects. Yes. It suits her.

What’s Nadiah’s opinion on cheese?

“What? SO RANDOM! HAHOHAHEOEHOEHOAHOEHOAOEHEHEHEHEHAHEHAH!”

What do you think about Limin?

Limin is my dead ex-lover who has a dangerous obsession over anime pretty boys and their real-life Japanese counterparts. She has a damn good chokehold and hits hard, despite being quite an accident and sickness-prone person. Limin is also a lemon. A nice one.

4. Who is Serinder?

Serinder is a fish-bird hybrid who is easy to amuse. She’s also quite sensitive. Serinder passionately loves Linkin Park and Milo to death and will go beserk if anyone disses them. She’s nice to have around for company. Serinder is also prone to excessive usage of the word “fuck”, completely freaking out, and bursting into ‘lalala’s when she is bored.

In a race between you, Shoba, and Bernie, who would win?

Shoba, most probably. But if we were allowed to completely dismember our opponents while running, then I say me.

What is one thing Siaw Ee isn’t exactly made for?

Impregnating other women.

What if you found out that Joanna was secretly an alien plotting to take over the world together with Shiren?

The first part, I’m not surprised. The second part got me upset. Shiren! How could you?!

Who would win in a duel, Natalie or you?

Hmmmmmmmmmmm. So far, they’ve all been draws. I still say I would.

What is one thing that you have in common with Nadiah?

We both like THE GIRLY MAN. :D

What would you do if Shoba and Natalie were going out?

I’d completely freak out and punch Shoba. Then I’d apologise and ask them to continue on their date. Afterwards, I’d ask them politely how on earth this happened, all the while trying to stifle my mad laughter.

What’s your fondest memory of Joanna?

Easy! During OBS last year, when we were all hiking. Then she and I started belting out random MCR songs. That was awesome fun.

Super fun adventure amusement park marathon with you, Azryl and Limin! How did it go?

I ditched them the moment we got in and wasn’t seen again until 10pm.

If Shiren and Natalie teamed up, what would they most likely accomplish?

I have no idea. Somehow, I fear that it would be plans for my downfall.

Oh no, Siaw Ee’s been kidnapped by aliens! What would you say the moment they got back?

“HOLY SHIT! WHAT DID THEY DO TO YOU?! AND WHY WASN’T I PICKED?”

Who’s Azryl dating?

He’s dating this saxophone player from a local SKA band. I’m serious.

To take the quiz, click here.

Tangerine Dream.

2008-06-14T10:30:00.002+08:00

Dreams.

Do you continue chasing them even if the whole world seems to be conspiring against everything that you want?

No matter how much you want something, there will be the inevitable self-questioning once your ideals are challenged. You start to wonder whether you were ever meant to be in the whole scheme of things you've planned out in the first place. Was it ever right? Was it even wrong?

It's one thing if you're the only one feeling the pressure. It's another when someone else gets dragged down as well. Even more so when that other person is someone you care about the most.

I don't understand why you'd want to go through all this for someone like me. I'm not a good person. I never have been. I lie, I cheat; I've even stolen. It would've been so much easier for you to just drop everything and move on. I don't want you getting into trouble. I've told you; even if you left, I'd still be so, so very happy. At the very least, there's some part of you that believes now. At the very least, I have the memories.

But if you're adamant on staying, I won't stop you. I won't disappoint; at the very least, I'll try not to hurt. "She needs to get hurt", she told you. A small part of me fears this so much. I've hurt people before; I can just as easily do it again without meaning to. And that's the very last thing I want to do.

Sometimes I wonder what you see in me. You never seem to have a solid answer.

Not knowing that elusive redeeming quality is the very thing that fuels these questions. And I start to wonder whether I'm even worthy to hold on to the ones I care about the most.

But all that doubt and insecurity dissolves when I see you smile. In that small moment in time I can actually believe that there's something in me that you think is good enough to hold on to. In that small moment of time, there's nothing but sky, sunlight, warmth, and a quiet sort of joy.

In that small moment of time, I feel that there's hope for happiness yet.

Hohoemi mo namida mo subete wo

Uketomete ikiteku mirai ni.

FUCK! A QUIZ! :D

2008-06-06T18:32:00.001+08:00

I'm still struggling to come up with real blog post starters. So in the meantime, I'll bore you all senseless with something I found on Audre's blog. Enjoy. By the way, Steph, you're gonna be in a section called "How I Met Some People".

YES.

I'm a copypasta.

So screw me already.

By the way, this thing is backdated. So some things might be different. Enjoy.

1. Who is someone you wish you could fix things with?
Too many to list down. But I'm sure they know who they are.

2. What does the last text message in your inbox say, and who's it from?
"Like i said, he'll be asleep so long as you leave around 11. What are you telling your mom?" The contact's saved as 'Green'.

3. What's a happy time you've had in the past week?
Wandering around Borders, losing track of time.

4. Is there anything in your past that you'd like to try again?
DUH. OBS, getting into a road accident, OBS, swearing loudly in a mean girl's face, OBS, getting yelled in the face by Mr. Zaini, OBS...

7. Who do you like to spend your nights with?
This person knows.

8. Are you an emotional person?
I have absolutely no idea.

9. Are you self-conscious?
No, I'm not. *pause* Does my hair look okay?

10. What's something that can always make you feel better?
Drawing, being hugged by people I like being hugged with, drawing, listening to kickass music, drawing, being with the people I like haning out with, drawing, listening to awesome jokes, drawing, being in close proximity with my significant other, drawing...

11. Do you keep a diary?
It's more of a doodlebook.

13. Do you tend to make relationships complicated?
I'm complicated. What more my relationships.

14. Who do you feel the most comfortable around?
Green.

15. Favorite flavor of Vitamin Water?
I've never had that before. Never even heard of it.

16. One thing you're looking forward to?
The day I get a WoW subscription.

17. How do you feel about change?

Most of the time, I'm nonchalant to change. But in actual fact, it does take me some time to digest the fact that the world around me is slowly but surely shifting.

18. What are you not looking forward to?
O-Levels. Duh.

19. What are your plans for your next birthday?
Um. Grow a little taller during the day?

20. Do you even care about your birthday?
...is it wrong to say no?

21. Do you think anyone out there loves you?
Redundant question. DUH.

23. Have you ever seen your best friend cry?
I've made my best friend cry.

25. Who's the second person on your missed call list?
Green, with 2 missed calls.

26. What is your favorite ring tone on your phone?
The Sharpest Lives by MCR, also my current tone.

27. What were you doing at midnight last night?
Lying twisted in bed, unconcious to the real world.

28. What is the last thing you ate?
Instant noodles.

29. Do you believe that everything happens for a reason?
Yeah. It's called fate.

30. What color are the curtains of your room?
White.

32. If you could push one person off of a mountain, who would it be?
President George W. Bush. Or the typical emo kid. One less moron on this earth, either way...

33. Where did you get the shirt you're wearing?
P5 Outdoor camp. It used to come down to my mid-thighs. It fits me fine now.

34. Is anything bothering you right now?
The fact that I'm too full of noodles to lie down.

35. What's the weirdest thing you've ever heated up in a microwave?
Ants.

36. Are you a cuddler?
Kind of. Sort of. Depends. But I can get very cuddly. Yes indeed.

37. Does anything hurt on your body right now?
Oh, you so don't wanna know.

38. Have you ever liked someone who treated you like crap?
Haha. That was a long time ago.

40. Have you ever seen a zebra?
In a zoo! It smelled like ass.

40. Are you offended by dumb blond jokes?
'Course not. I love blond jokes.

41. What happens tomorrow?
Stuff. Why'd you ask?

42. If you could go back and change something, would you?
I don't want to think about the past.

43. What does your hair look like right now?
Black, straight-ish, short and definitely reaching past my collar.

44. Has anyone disappointed you recently?
Nope. It seems I have, though.

45. Will this weekend be a good one?
Hope so.

46. How did you get the idea for your myspace name?
Atiq = Artique.

47. What is your favorite number?
300. THIS IS SPARTAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

48. Look to your right what do you see?
A wall.

51. Do you get attached to people easily?
Lol, I'm not a fridge magnet.

52. Why are you online?
To update my blog. Was watching 2 Gargoyles episodes before this on Youtube.

53. What happened a year ago from today?
Tried to call a certain someone on their handphone. Nobody picked up, even after I called thrice.

54. Have you ever been to Florida?
Nope.

58. Are you looking forward to tomorrow?
Hell yeah.

59. If you could ask God for one thing, what would you ask for?
For everyone to go to Heaven.

60. Whats one thing thats heavily weighing on your mind?
People. Lots of people.

SECOND

Last night, did you go to sleep smiling?
No.

Anyone told you a secret this week?
No.

Did you have a good day yesterday?
Not really...

Does your brother have a gal?
No. He's only eight.

What is your Brother's gal name?
Refer to the above.

Have you ever collapsed on the bathroom floor?
I've fallen, yes.

Do you play an instrument?
Guitar. Um. Does recorder count?

What is the reason behind your display name?
My furry name. And my current status.

In the next 4 months, what are you looking forward to most?
Getting OVER the O-Levels.

Name someone who said something interesting today?
Green, who sent me an interesting excerpt from Eclipse.

When is the last time you wanted to punch someone in their face?
A few weeks back. A certain magician's face.

What is the last thing you spent money on?
A bottle of Pringles Cheese Chips.

Whats your favorite drink?
Orange soda. But I drink plain water mostly nowadays.

Is the person you last hugged attractive?
Hell yes.

What do you hear right now?
Blood Red Sandman by Lordi.

How did you wake up this morning?
Was blinded by the room light.

Do you believe everything you hear?
No, but it does pique my interest.

Do you live near your best friend?
No.

Where were you at 11:45 AM today?
At the computer, watching Gargoyles.

Do/did you listen to your parents?
Used to. I rarely do nowadays. I'm a terrible daughter.

Would rain actually stop you from going somewhere or ruin your plans?
No way. I am unafraid of the rain.

Do you fight with your parents all the time?
It's pretty much one-sided. Mummy Dearest does all the work of shouting.

What is the best eye color on a member of the opposite sex?
Green. Or a mix.

Last time you cried?
Can't remember. A couple of months back?

Is it easy for others to make you feel awkward?
I guess so.

Who was the last person you commented?
Bernie.

What is something you want to do now?
Eat more noodles.

Are you happy with where you are in your life?
The greater part of me is. ^^

THIRD

Do you have the following in your
bedroom:
1. Condom:
Um. Why would I have one?

2. Cell phone:
Yep.

3. Chair/stool:
Nope.

4. Book shelf
Nope.

5. Dresser:
My mother's, actually.

6. Computer/laptop:
Yup.

7. Bags:
Everybody's bags in one bedroom.

8. Pictures:
Do my sketchbooks count?

9. Mirror:
Part of the fugly dresser.

10. Skateboard:
Threw it away last year.

11. Bed:
Yeah.

12. Clothes on the floor:
My older sister's, mainly.

13. Surfboard:
Can't surf in Singapore.

14. Smoke detector:
Nope.

15. Musical Instrument:
My guitar and my old recorder.

16. Hero:
Does a poster of Wolverine count?

17. Locking door:
Yep.

18. Bottle of water:
It's in the fridge.

19. Blacklight:
I want one, though I don't have it.

20. Medals/Ribbons:
A few. The rest are in a cupboard in the living room.

21. CDs:
In the living room, on a shelf. Not in my bedroom.

22. Flag:
Nope.

23. Stop sign/any sign:
Nope.

24. Real Gun:
I want one.

25. Cigarettes:
Yeah. My sister's. Don't get any ideas.

26 Pot:
Wish I had some.

27. Alcohol:
Nope

28. Books:
Too many.

29. Ps2:
NUU WAI MAN XBOX FTW

30. box:
Several.

31. Stereo:
Nope.

31. Television:
In the living room.

32. Lighter:
Yes. Again my sister's.

33. Gum:
I don't like gum much.

34. How many windows do you have in ur
room?
One?

35. do you fix your bedroom?
It's not broken.

36. What's on your walls?
Dust.

37. Has a opposite sex been in your
room before?
Of course. He lives in the same house.

38. Has the opposite sex been on your
bed?
Yeah.

39. Has the opposite sex slept in your
bed?
Yeah. Had to drag him off. I mean, it's MY sleeping mat.

40. Who usually sleeps in your bed
other than you?
Everyone else but my mom.

Black Orchid.

2008-06-01T12:58:00.002+08:00

It's been a while since I last heard this song. Blue October's one of my most favourite bands; they're brilliant.

Lyrics:
Have you ever been so lonely
There's no one there to hold
Just pull me in or disown me
And then
Climb inside
My arms are open wide
Have a look inside

It is not that I am scared to learn
Just why I'm empty inside
Just hold my hand to show some concern
If I live or die
My eyes are are open wide
Help me look inside

I hear the water drip from the faucet
It's sweetly falling in tune
Who knew
I'm gently closing the closet
And I fall to the floor
And crawl to my room

The thought of ending it soon
Just let me sleep in my room

Hear me cry
Cry
Cry
Cry

No, I hear a knock at the front door
Don't come in
I try to look at you but I can't stop shaking
Leave me alone, just go away
Mother, I'm so scared
I'm so scared

An empty bed but all of my sheets
Are gone
They're wrapped around me and you
All is quiet but the drop of my gun
'Cause I...
I want to belong to someone
But maybe life's not for everyone.

Some Random Fragment Of My Wild Imagination. AKA, Proof Of My Furryness.

2008-05-30T20:20:00.002+08:00

"Great God." The bipedal red fox stood erect, his amber eyes fixed upon the great insectoid beast that towered several metres before him. He clenched his fists, sizing up his next kill. A wailing screech erupted from its gaping maw, thick ropes of slime dripping down from the serrated mandibles. The giant praying mantis, or whatever it was, looked down at Gilfox with pure contempt in all four of dark, beady eyes.

Gilfox grinned. The thing was going to be a great warm-up after his four-month long hiatus away from slaying. The curved steel blades on each of his arms were hungry for blood. He had taken a serious thrashing from his last mission where he and his fellow beast slayers had taken down a crimson auroch that had been creating chaos in the rural mountain village of Sh'ankurr. The big-ass bull had torn open a gaping hole in his left thigh, on which still remained an ugly scar, despite Jadine's best remedy for treating demon wounds.

A gargantuan claw came swiftly down onto Gilfox, snapping him back to reality. Enough dreaming already, Gil, he told himself. Timing himself just right, he leapt up on the mantis' scythe-like claw and sprang upwards from it, grabbing a hold of its overhanging antennae. The oversized insect shrieked in rage, swiping at the red fox with both of its deadly claws, but all to no avail.

Gilfox swung back and forth from the beast's appendages, gaining momentum, and then swung upwards, somersaulting onto the head of the mantis. This only served to further aggravate the monster, and it shook its head from side to side, trying to lose the infuriating furry creature perched on top. Gilfox hung on to a ridge in its exoskeleton with all his might with one arm, and used the other arm to hack away at it with his arm blade. Find it, he told himself. Find that goddamn weak spot...

But before he could tear through the tough membrane under the hard outer shell, Gilfox was thrown off the creature's head and sent hurtling through the air...then painfully skidding several feet on the ground as he hit it hard.

The fox gingerly stood up, coughing out dust and brushing off the dirt from his vermillion fur. The insect gazed upon him with its cold eyes and made a series of high-pitched screeches. It was laughing at him, mocking him. Gilfox glared up at the towering mantis, his eyes full of smoldering indignation. "Oh yeah sure, laugh now", he yelled, sprinting towards the monster at top speed, "but it ain't gonna be so funny when I tear your fuckin' ass apart!"

The mantis lunged for him, but Gilfox dodged its swinging claw just in time; using it again as a platform, he thrust himself up skyward, until he was several feet above the mantis' head. "Die, bitch", he muttered, forcefully stabbing his arm blades into the gap he had created.

With a horrible, dying screech that pained his ears, the mantis succumbed to the hands of death and fell with an almighty boom to the earth, shaking it entirely and causing a great cloud of dust to billow from underneath it. Sticky, green translucent liquid oozed out from its head cavity, forming a slippery cesspool around it.

Gilfox emerged from the cloud of dust, covered head to toe in grit, dust and giant insect slime. "Nice look, young'un", quipped Arkhan, grinning a wolf's grin.

"Shut up, old man", muttered Gilfox, shooting the older timber wolf the dirtiest look he could muster. "I didn't see you helping me."

"Hnh. Well, save up that energy of yours fer tomorrow. There's a bounty for th' head of Makirru, some demon that's been doin' shit in a village not far from base. We're goin' t'check it out at first light", replied Arkhan casually, scratching the back of his greyed head. "And go take a shower", he added. "You look an' smell worse'n shit."

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There you go. Gilfox Wyldephere, beast slayer. My fursona.

I'm such a furfag.

Career Profiling.

2008-05-22T20:24:00.005+08:00

So, according to MOE's OSCAR system...

O S C A R
Orientation System for Careers

Top of Form

List of occupations that match well with your Interests.

Artist (Fine Arts)
Artist, Commercial
Author
Child Care Assistant
Designer, Graphic
Executive, Health Promotion
Manager, Gallery / Museum
Playwright
Teacher, Art
Teacher, Music
Visual Merchandiser/Artist, Display

Bottom of Form

Top of Form

List of occupations that match well with both your
Interests and Abilities.

Artist, Commercial
Author
Executive, Health Promotion
Manager, Gallery / Museum
Playwright
Visual Merchandiser/Artist, Display

Bottom of Form

Copypasta Quizzing.

2008-05-15T18:50:00.003+08:00

*high-fives Bernie*

Find your Celestial Choir

Weird.

What type of Fae are you?

*high-fives Bernie...again*

Maverick, hmm? Sounds interesting. Self-resilience? I'm raising my eyebrow at that one.

Your Aura is Violet

Idealistic and thoughtful, you have the mind and ideas to change the world.

And you have the charisma of a great leader, even if you don't always use it!

The purpose of your life: saying truths that other people dare not say

Famous purples include: Mahatma Gandhi, Martin Luther King, Jr., Susan B. Anthony

Careers for you to try: Political Activist, Inventor, Life Coach

What Color Is Your Aura?

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHHA...no.

You Are an Orange Crayon

Your world is colored with offbeat, confident, and stimulating colors.

You have a personality that's downright weird - and you wouldn't change it for anything.

Loud and expressive, you voice your opinions fearlessly and strongly.

And while you have a strong personality, you can be friends with almost anyone.

Your color wheel opposite is blue. Your confidence is something blue people truly envy.

What Color Crayon Are You?

Ohh yeahh. Orange ftw.

You Would Be a Pet Cat

Independent and aloof, you don't like to be dependent on anyone.

And as for other people, you can take them or leave them. You often don't care.

You live your life by your own rules. And you have deep motivations that no one truly understands.

Why you would make a great pet: You're not needy or greedy... unlike other four legged friends.

Why you would make a bad pet: You're not exactly running down to greet people at the door

What you would love about being a cat: Agility and freedom

What you would hate about being a cat: Being treated like a dog by clueless humans

What Kind of Pet Would You Be?

I'm not THAT cold. Wait. Am I?

In 1992 (the year you were born)

George H.W. Bush is president of the US

Hurricane "Andrew" becomes the most costly in US history with $20 billion worth of damage

Arkansas Governor Bill Clinton is elected President of the United States

Riots break out in Los Angeles after police are acquitted in the Rodney King case

An "Earth Summit" is held in Brazil to address global environmental problems

Jay Leno replaces Johnny Carson as host of the Tonight Show on NBC

George H. W. Bush becomes ill on a visit in Japan and vomits on the Japanese Prime Minister

Mike Tyson goes on trial charged with raping a 1991 Miss Black America Contest contestant

Amy Fisher, the "Long Island Lolita," is arrested for shooting Mary Jo Buttafuoco on the front porch of her home

Toronto Blue Jays win the World Series

Washington Redskins win Superbowl XXVI

Pisstburgh Penguins win the Stanley Cup

Aladdin is the top grossing film

"End of the Road" by Boyz II Men spends the most time at the top of the US charts

Mad About You and The Real World premiere

Sailor Moon premieres on TV Asahi in Japan

What Happened the Year You Were Born?

Lol'd at the one where he puked.

Your Brain's Pattern

Your mind is a firestorm - full of intensity and drama.

Your thoughts may seem scattered to you most of the time...

But they often seem strong and passionate to those around you.

You are a natural influencer. The thoughts you share are very powerful and persuading.

What Pattern Is Your Brain?

MAH HEAD'S ON FIIIIRRREEE.

Your 2006 Summer Anthem Is

Dani California by the Red Hot Chili Peppers

"She's a lover, baby, and a fighter

Shoulda seen it comin' when it got a little brighter

With a name like "Dani California"

Day was gonna come when I was gonna mourn ya

A little loaded she was stealin' another breath

I love my baby to death"

What's Your 2006 Summer Anthem?

DAMN, HOW I LOVE THIS SONG.

...aaand that's about it for now. I'll blog some other time.

And Suddenly It's Quiz Time!

2008-05-11T17:53:00.002+08:00

Take the first letter of your first name....

A-Gangster

B-Punky

C-Sweet

D-Amazing

E-Emotional

F-Girly

G-Funny

H-Pretty

I-Retarded

J-Gorgeous/Handsome

K-Beautiful

L-Fabulous

M-Slutty

N-Preppy

O-Hot

P-Very Sexy

Q-Boyish

R-Hot

S-Sexy

T-Sexual

U-Ugly

V-Wonderful

W-Scanky

X-Bitchy

Y-Under-appreciated

Z-Over-appreciated

NOW THE THIRD LETTER IN YOUR MIDDLE NAME(if you don’t have one use your last name):

A-Wizard

B-Obbesser

C-Bitch

D-Surfer

E- God (ess)

F-Retard

G-Queen/ King

H-Slut

I-Girl

J-Goth

K-Nerd

L-Alcoholic

M-porn star

N-Punk

O-Geek

P-Skank

Q-Rabbit

R-Sex machine

S-Prince (ess)

T-Whore

U-Cry Baby

V-Jackass

W-sex god (ess)

X-Scared-cat

Y-Coward

Z-Chocoholic

Now, What Color Is Your Shirt?

Red- Who likes the Backstreet Boys

purple- Who thinks Earth is flat

Orange-Who likes to sleep in the fridge

Yellow- Who wants to murder you

Pink- Who will rock your world

Green- Who loves God

blue- Who has a huge butt

White- Who loves Ice Cube

Brown- Who Wears Big Sunglasses

Black- Who swears like a sailor

Gray- Who is taken

None-Who is a sexy beast

Apparently, I'm a gangster nerd who swears like a sailor.

Almost true.

IMPORTANT PUBLIC SERVICE ANNOUNCEMENT.

2008-05-11T17:34:00.002+08:00

HENCEFORTH, NO CITIZEN OF EARTH SHALL PATRONISE ANY MCDONALD'S OUTLET IN ANY LOCATION ON THIS PLANET.

HERE I PRESENT TO YOU THE REASON FOR THIS MASSIVE BOYCOTT. ANYONE FOUND MAKING ANY FORM OF LIASON WITH PERSONS INVOLVED WITH THE MCDONALD'S COMMUNITY WILL FACE THE DIRE CONSEQUENCES.

...wait, too late.

Happy Mother's Day to all you moms out there, by the way. We kids may be such whiny bitches sometimes. Sorry 'bout that.

Of Things To Come.

2008-05-09T12:56:00.001+08:00

These past few days have been a sleepy sort of sunshine for me. Ive been smiling and scritching a lot. Maybe it's the warm weather thats caused a build up of fuzzy sensations. Maybe it's the holiday vibes. Whatever the case, no matter how good it feels, the tingling feeling of more sinister things to come remains. Kind of like when you enter a dimly-lit area in Halo that has several ammo packs, and then the background music makes a sudden transition. You know, when you can even smell that Brute pack lurking in the map somewhere.

I wish I'd taken the mid-years. I have a feeling that the lack of stress would be my downfall later on in the year.

Speaking of which, it seems almost surreal that the major exams, the ones I've been preparing for almost four years now, are barely five months away. Not to mention that the comfortable atmosphere of being in this secondary school would vanish along with it. The familiar faces, smells, sights and sounds...all gone. Perhaps, if Im lucky, I'd manage to sieve out a few faces from the crowd of strangers, but even so, I'm not guaranteed a friend. More importantly, would I even get to a JC?

It worries me sometimes, when I lie awake in bed, before I shut my eyes and go to sleep. What lies ahead. Well, not so much my future, but the current obstacles hindering my path. That path, that journey everyone makes to find their own peak of happiness. Success. And whether I'd be satisfied with what I'd achieved on this planet, as I lie on my deathbed. It's the worst kind of death imaginable, having unfulfilled dreams beforehand. It's the sort of thing that would rouse spirits from their graves, causing them to wander aimlessly on the face of the earth.

But back to my main point. I wonder if I'd turn out like the people I look up to today. Would I stick to the ideals I had so fiercely defended in my youth? Would growing up, perhaps, force me to change my beliefs and adopt others? Would I change? In these four years, I have grown so much, and changed so vastly, that it scares me to imagine what my past self would think if she saw what I have become. Metamorphosis. In these four years, I have learnt a lot, and not just from stacks of paper and books. Maybe I'm young, and maybe I'm stupid, but I don't think I can deny the fact that time – and the people around me – have shaped me to become the person I am today.

Maybe it's just adolescent agonizing. Perhaps it's the mere transition from child to adult. But whatever the case, I think I finally am growing up, little by little. And though it scares me shitless when I stop to think about it, there's nothing much I can do but give the future a smile, and walk towards it with open arms.

And of course, with my eyes open too, in case I trip over a rock and fall on my face while walking there.

Silence.

2008-05-05T18:52:00.003+08:00

Creep
by Radiohead

When you were here before
Couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel
Your skin makes me cry
You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
I wish I was special
You're so fucking special
But I 'm a creep
I 'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here

I don't care if it hurts
I want to have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul
I want you to notice
When I'm not around
You're so fucking special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here

She's running out again
She's running out
She run, run, run run
Run

Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You're so fucking special
I wish I was special
But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here
I don't belong here.

The Thief
by Relient K

I guess it's safe to say you're never coming back
And I understand why you wouldn't want to
I guess it's up to me to find a way to get to you

And I can't see you
Getting used to
Living in the midst of your perfection
And I'm so lost
How can you trust
Somewhere the sun is always shining

And there's just one last thing that I have to say
As we reflect on the mess of all this that I've made
It was cowardice that made me push you away
I was so afraid cause you were so much better than me.

A Sudden Wave Of Japanophilia.

2008-04-30T21:12:00.002+08:00

My authentic japanese name is 羽鳥 Hatori (feather bird) 歩 Ayumu (walk, deeper meaning: walk your own way).
Take your real japanese name generator! today!
Created with Rum and Monkey's Name Generator Generator.

You are a Chibi Seme!

You are the seme in disguise. Able to fit in and get along with uke and seme alike, you are able to get close to the uke on their level before exerting your dominance. This makes you at times manipulative and able to fool others about your true seme nature. Because of your harmless appearance, it takes the flamboyantly gay Flaming Uke to match wits and really bring out your aggressive side to expose you for the seme that you are.

Most compatible with: Flaming Uke, Badass Uke

Least compatible with: Dramatic Uke

What seme or uke are you? Take the experience at SemeUke.com, or find merchandise here.

You are "Excited"

What Japanese Smiley Are You?

It Are HURT. D:

2008-04-28T18:34:00.002+08:00

Yes, well, in case some of you didn't know, I was hospitalised for 8 days for meningitis. I'll be on MC this entire week, but I can go back to school if I feel better within the course of this week.

By the way, Thursday's off, under strict regulations by Mother Dearest...sorry Nat.

It developed from a viral infection in my brain(I've gotten sick of the brain jokes, so shut up already, I know I'm fricken' retarded up there). Symptoms included a really ouchyfied headache that won't go away no matter how many godforsaken pills you pop, fever, nausea and/or vomiting, stiffness in the neck and/or spine, photo and/or phonophobia(heightened sensitivity to light/sound) and several others which I didn't get, and can't be bothered to type out anyways.

All the other symptoms listed above were experienced by Yours Truly. And believe me, it wasn't any fun. In the few days before my hospital admission to TTSH, I was shambling around with my head in my hands, groaning and moaning like a bitch. The people who brought me to the sick bay and the people sitting at the back of the class should know. I was bothering them with my griping throughout school.

Turns out that by some freakishly brilliant stroke of luck, I actually had a viral infection in my brain, which lead to meningitis. I'm far too lazy to explain how I got it, so search it up on Wiki if you like. The CT scan I went for showed negative for any growth, but the Neuroscience consultant was still doubtful, so I underwent a lumbar puncture.

It hurt like a bitch and made me bawl like one.

Well, all in all, I'm better now, but I'll still be suffering from migraines once in a while, because, well, it's a long-term sort of thing, migraines. By the way, the doctors tell me I've got low blood pressure, which explains why I've been having those blackouts every time I get up from sitting. I'm such a sick kid. Blehh.

Thanks to everyone who sent me well-wishes and visited me, especially Nat and LSE...what were you guys trynna do, break a record or something?

But srsly. Thanks.

Full Moon?

2008-03-22T17:39:00.002+08:00

God help me.

I thought I was okay when I saw the moon yesterday and felt nothing, but it was only momentary.

The adrenaline rushes are starting to seep in, and I can't even see the moon yet.

So far, so good. I haven't gotten any morbid tendencies just yet.

But oh-my-GOODNESS, my head's going extremely trippy.

I need to run, VERY VERY far and FAST.

Mmmmmmphhhhhhhhhhh.

Yesterday was super awesome, by the way.

I'm still grinning like a mad idiot.

Or maybe that's just the lunar effect.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH, IT'S LIKE SOMETHING'S ABOUT TO EXPLODE IN MY LEFT VENTRICLE BUT I DON'T KNOW WHAT.

Mmmmmmmmmmmmphhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

I've been trying to listen to soft music, but it does nothing.

I hope it goes away before Monday.

Two Quizzes, A Poem And Something Of An Incoherent Rant.

2008-03-19T17:18:00.003+08:00

1.How tall are you? 163-164 cm. I have no idea why it fluctuates.

2. Have you ever been unfaithful in a relationship? Lol. Do I look like a frisky sort of person?

3. Do you own a gun? No, duh. I wish I did, though.

4. If you had a mental disorder, what would it be? Delusional disorder. Wiki it up.

5. How many letters are in your crush's name? Seven. No, sixteen. Wait, wait, six. Argh, forget it.

6. What do you think of hot dogs? They should come in smaller buns. And larger sausage sizes. I'm craving meat currently.

7. What's your favorite Christmas song? FRAAAAAWSTEEEEE THA SNOWMAAAAAAAAAAN...*goes horribly off-key*

8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning? Juice, but I never get it.

9. Do you do push-ups? Two weeks before NAPFA. Then I start panicking.

10. Have you ever done ecstasy? ...do I look like a junkie to you? Wait, don't answer that.

11. Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? ...moo?

12. Do you like the rain? Most days. It gets better when you're at home, all warm and toasty under the comforters.

13.Do you own a knife? Yes. *shifty eyes*

14. What do you smell like? Wet rags.

15. Do you have A.D.D.(Attention Deficit Disorder)? No, but I sure look like I do sometimes.

16. Full initials? S.AB.L

17. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment:

Eating grilled salmon
What time some person is going to call me
How I'm going to fare for SPA

18. Name the last 3 things you have bought today:

A pack of 4 AAA Batteries
Grilled Salmon with Spaghetti and Potato Salad
Breathmints

19. Name five drinks you regularly drink, in order most to least.

Water
Tea
Milo
Milk
Cordial

20. What time did you wake up today? 6.10 a.m

21. Can you spell? Enough to save my life.

22. Current worry? Whether I'm gonna make it through the O's.

23. Favorite place to be? Outside, walking on my own.

24. Least favorite place to be? In the midst of a packed crowd.

25. Where would you like to go? The moon!

26. Do you own slippers? Yeah.

27. What do you think you'll be? A graphic novelist.

28. Do you burn or tan? Tan, but only very slightly. I'm far too dark to burn anymore.

30.Yellow or blue? Blue. Yellow sucks.

31. Would you be a pirate? YAAARRRR!

32.Last time your cell rang? 5.30 p.m...three missed calls. My phone was on silent...sorry!

33. What songs do you sing in the shower? Um. Stuff from Creed and Nickelback. I don't sing, I caterwaul.

34. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child? Oh, I remember when I was a little kid, after closing my eyes to go to sleep, I'd squeeze them as tight as possible so I wouldn't open them again. Because I was afraid of opening my eyes, and seeing the hollowed-out, badly decomposing face of a corpse, like I did in one nightmare.

35. What's in your pockets right now? Lint. :D

36. Last thing that made you laugh? Jeff Dunham's ventriloquist act on YouTube.

37. Best bed sheets you had as a child? These sheets which had squares in every colour of the rainbow on them. They made me feel all woozy.

38. Worst injury you've ever had? Jumping really high on my paren'ts bed, falling off in mid-leap and landing head-first on my skull. On the stone floor. God knows how I survived.

39. What is your GPA(Grade Point Average)? YOU SO DON'T WANNA KNOW.

40. How many TVs do you have in your house? Just the one.
41. Who is your loudest friend? All of them.

42. Who is your most silent friend? Tiggy. He never speaks.

43. Does someone have a crush on you? I ate some jellybeans. They tasted very nice. Sorry. what was the question again?

44. Do you wish on stars? I pray to God.

45. What is your favorite book? The Kite Runner. Still.

46. What song did you last hear? Our Song by Taylor Swift.

49. What were you doing 12AM last night? Spacing out, because I took a nap earlier on.

50. What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up? How much I didn't get to sleep.

51. Does anyone know your password to your email? Nobody. NOBODYYY.

52. What was the last thing you ordered at McDonalds? An apple pie.

53. Are you an emotional person? I really have no idea. I can swing from emotional to stoic just like that. It depends on what I'm currently thinking of.

54. Do you like your school? Very much. Yeah, laugh.

55. Do you believe in love at first sight? I believe in love. But not at first sight. That's called being horny.

56. Ever felt jealous of your friend? Sometimes. I'm generally cool with most people.

57. What was the last thing you did? Trying to complete this quiz. Still doing it.

58. Who is right next to you? My younger sister.

59. Who was the last person you ate with? Diyana. Then we got stuck under the umbrella bench, 'cause it was raining all around us.

60. What song are you listening to right now? Get Down by the Backstreet Boys. Yes, LAUGH.

61. How's the weather right now? Cold and rainy.

62. Last person who called you today? My mother. Again.

64. Last song you sang? Stop and Stare by One Republic. And as I said

65. Last time you danced? Sports Day mass dance practice for P.E today in the hall.

66. Lost a friendship over something stupid? I very nearly lost one of my best friends in primary school. But we're cool now.

67. Last thing you ate? Toast.

68. Been really depressed before? Is this some kind of trick question?

69. Faked being sick to miss school? Only when extremely necessary. *cough cough*

70. What time did you wake up today? LOL, REPEATED QUESTION.

71. Current taste? Fish. Don't ask why.

72. Who is the person that posted this survey? I got it from Bernie.

73. What are you wearing right now? Sec 3 class shirt and camo shorts.

74. Are you too shy to ask anyone out? I don't think so.

75. What is the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? ...nothing?

76.Where are you right now? Home.

77. What date and day is it? 19th March, 2008, on a rainy Wednesday.

78. Did you go anywhere today? School?

79. What did you do there? Some educational bullshit. And some studying afterwards.

80. How old are you? I turned 16 in February.

81. Are you mature or immature? I tend to display both traits.

82. Do you call your parents by their first name? Hell no. She'd skin me alive.

83. Are you an only child? Second in four siblings.

84. Where do you go shopping? I don't.

85. Do you like where you work? I wish I could start working.

86. Do you like books? Sort of.

87. Do you want to get married? The thought of holy matrimony scares the sh*t outta me.

88. To whom? I DON'T WANNA!

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Greed:	Low
Gluttony:	Medium
Wrath:	Medium
Sloth:	Medium
Envy:	Low
Lust:	Medium
Pride:	High

Discover Your Sins - Click Here

...at least I'm not lustful.

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Warmth.

There are many things unspoken
which need not be said.
Silences are left unbroken
and prudence left for dead.
There are many things that do not need
a voice to take a form.
When emotions grow and start to take seed,
we break off from the norm.
Linked are our hearts to our minds,
with feelings in between.
So read my gestures, hark the signs
as I make my feelings seen.
I speak not a verse, read not a rhyme
as I sit here next to you.
I'll just slowly spend all of my time
showing just how true
this velvet joy, this quiet bliss
is as the blood that runs
through my veins as we once kissed
under a thousand splendid suns.

This is badly, badly unfinished. I need some help. Any takers?

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...seriously, what the hell?

2008-03-11T09:25:00.001+08:00

What Siti Atiqah Bte Lukman Means

You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.

You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.

You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.

You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.

You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life.

You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home.

You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.

You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.

You have the classic "Type A" personality.

People see you as a complete enigma, and only you truly understand who you are.

You spend most of your time introspecting and seeking truth.

You're a very interesting person... but not many people know you enough to realize it.

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.

Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.

Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

You are full of energy. You are spirited and boisterous.

You are bold and daring. You are willing to do some pretty outrageous things.

Your high energy sometimes gets you in trouble. You can have a pretty bad temper at times.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.

You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.

At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.

You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.

Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way.

And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life.

You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it.

You are a seeker of knowledge, and you have learned many things in your life.

You are also a keeper of knowledge - meaning you don't spill secrets or spread gossip.

People sometimes think you're snobby or aloof, but you're just too deep in thought to pay attention to them.

You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated.

You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want.

You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way!

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.

You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.

You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

Love Is NOT A Fallacy.

2008-03-08T21:42:00.002+08:00

So, I was just reading this short story by Max Shulman, entitled Love Is A Fallacy, for English period. We're supposed to discuss this passage after the holidays, but I just thought it would be better to just let out everything that's been going through my mind as well. It's also partly due to the fact that the title kind of pissed me off.

First off, what is a fallacy? According to Dictionary.com, it's a deceptive, misleading, or false notion or belief. For example, saying that the world is flat, THAT'S a fallacy.

Basically, the dumbass in the story ultimately comes down to that particular conclusion. And why? Because he was too much of a logical analyst, I suppose.

Now, most of you may be scratching your heads, wondering what the hell I'm talking about. Surely a left-brained person, with more cerebral and practical thinking patterns would come to something that made more sense? No, not necessarily. In fact, it's more likely that the more you try to think rationally, more systematically, making everything more computerised...the more it starts to make less and less sense.

Let me explain. Normally, as human beings, it is ingrained in us the tendency to want to make order out of chaos, to organise. It's one of the instincts made special for us homo sapiens. Heck, even within us, there are several systems set for us to regain an enviroment of normality. I'm talking about the process of homeoestasis. Without this system of constant maintenance, choas would ensue, followed by near certain death. It's the same thing with out obsession to keep things in line. It just goes against our most basic natures, what evolution has carved out for us.

But being people, being human souls, that just takes it to a whole new different dimension. We are probably the only species on Earth that have within us the gift of compassion; that is, the ability to sympathise with other creatures. It is this, combined with all the emotions given to any living person that separates us from the other beasts. It is the stuff that drives us to do the most remarkable acts of heroism, compassion...and yes, remarkable acts of love as well. We are not merely black and white; rather, a spectrum of colours in between. And that is why sometimes, things seem a whole lot simpler if we just listened to our hearts.

So how the hell can anyone come up to you and say,"Hey, all this talk about love is just fricken' bullshit." Hell, I'd go up to that person, smack him upside the face and tell him to go back to his mom and tell her how much she means to him. Love is about as real as it can get. Sure, there's about a bajillion different meanings for this quirky little four-letter word, and you can't really put a finger on it, but each and every one of us have a bit of it ingrained in us, ticking and beating along to the rhythms of our heart. It's as real as you and me. And if you still insist on love being a fallacy, heck. This whole goddamn WORLD is fucking fake.

And why do I believe so whole-heartedly in this, you ask?

Because, judging by the circumstances coming my way and weighing the reasons for it all, I think I'm slowly falling in love myself.

God, I Suck.

2008-03-03T21:24:00.002+08:00

And I mean the above in a 'GAWD, I sssssuuuuuuuuuhhhhhh-ckk' sort of way, scrunching my face up for effect.

To my fellow debaters and class, you guys did super well. Especially ZJ, who was honestly flipping out beforehand. You guys made our class proud. I'm just really, really sorry I couldn't do as well. I hope you find it in your hearts to forgive me somehow, because I honestly can't forgive myself right now. I just can't believe I completely blanked out in front of two classes, WITH all my points right in front of me.

I had my stuff.

I was prepared.

So why the hell did that happen? That was totally uncalled for. That was not part of the plan. I wasn't supposed to freak out. I wasn't supposed to just freaking WALK OUT on the whole thing. That was a disaster. That was a total, complete disaster and it was because of me that we lost. That's why I'm so disappointed with myself. If I had just kept calm, do what I was supposed to do and FOCUS...even if we lost, I knew I put up a fight.

But I didn't.

I just went paper-white, empty porridge-bowl-blank.

I don't know what exactly happened; maybe it was because I was up against my friends. Maybe I got intimidated. Maybe I couldn't think up anything against the preposition fast enough. Maybe it was the motion. Whatever it was, EVERYONE went through it. So why didn't I make it?

Nevertheless, being the innocent souls they were, they applauded after I was done, even though they should've been stoning me instead. And even though I was on the brink of climbing the giant metallic structure behind me and hurling myself off the top in an attempt to commit hara kiri, I still managed to bearhug Trishna, Sally and Masyitah. I'm just really angry with myself for not giving them something to work against.

This was an easy victory for them.

This was honourless for me.

God, I suck. I suck so bad.

Thank for trying to make me feel better, guys.

This cheered me up a little bit.

30 Things You Never Knew About Me.

2008-02-28T18:18:00.003+08:00

1. I have a soft spot for old school love songs. Especially those from Air Supply.

2. I used to be afraid of heights. I kind of still am, though. I like the ground very much.

3. I'm allergic to dust, Ribena and grapes.

4. I love rainbows. You can distract me with anything that's brightly multicoloured.

5. I'm also easily distracted by food. Especially meat. MEAT.

6. Okay, okay. I watch hentai. *averts eyes*

7. I secretly rave to techno when nobody's looking.

8. Okay. So I like fluff. So what? I mean, it's all soft...and furry.

9. I have a soft spot for living things in their infancy. Kittens, snake hatchlings...and even human babies.

10. I have a guitar. I've named her Sharyn, after one of my favourite songs Rose of Sharyn.

11. I'm a furry.

12. I like men.

13. I like un-men as well.

14. I am in love with the vocals of Howard Jones from Killswitch Engage. It's one of those deep, gospel-like voices. HE'S A FREAKING TENOR, GODDAMNIT.

15. I do attend a madrasah(religious school).

16. I luff Mika! Everybody's gonna love today, love today, love todaaaayy...

17. I got sick of anime at some point two years ago. I now tread in the footsteps of Dark Horse, Marvel and DC.

18. I still love Pokemon.

19. I wish I was Beastboy from Teen Titans. Man, that guy is the reason for the phrase 'the animal inside of you'.

20. I used to dance to BSB. I still do, sometimes.

21. I like cheese very much. Like, cheese nachos, the cheezy croissant from the canteen, grilled cheese sandwiches...

22. I can't take milk in the morning. I'm lactose intolerant like that.

23. My favourite numbers are , 5, 7, 10, 13, 15, 35, 50, 69, 99, 100 and 300.

24. I LOVE THE COLOUR ORANGE OMFG. I LIKE EVERYTHING THAT'S ORANGE. ORANGE SODA, ORANGES, THE SUN, TIGERS, FOXES...oh, and my other favourite colours are black and steel grey, as well as copper sulphate blue.

25. My favourite animals are the tiger, wildcat and fox. Gophers have a soft spot in my heart as well.

26. I don't like gems. I'd rather silver, stainless steel and titanium. I like chains.

27. I'm a bit of a masochist.

28. My extensive list of alternative names include:

Atiq
Tiq
Tiqah
Tiky
Tiky-Wiky
Tweaky
Tickytickybombom(Syamimi used to call me this)
Tique
Artique
Sir Artique Igneus Linton(D.E.Pers would know...I just added the middle name 'cause I was a demon warlord)
Stupid,
Chicken
Bear
Button
Beancurd
Dipshit
Ass
Asshole
Piece Of Shit
Fool
Dumbass
Hey, you!
Mister
OI!
Boy
Girl
Homo
Freak
Weirdo
Tikus
Kak Atiq
Tikkatikkatikkatikkatikkatik
Weakling
Bitch
Bastard
Jerk
Loser
Slacker
Mofo
Apu
YOUU FUCKER!

29. I used to have goldfishes, a canary, a mouse and two hamsters. They all died.

30. I'm going to be in a baaaaand.

SUPA DANCE REMIX FEVAAAAA!

2008-02-24T18:17:00.003+08:00

I think it's safe to say that anime has been raped.

BY

THE

CARAMELLDANSEN.

PRINCE OF TENNIS RAPE

DEATH NOTE RAPE

NARUTO RAPE

FRUITS BASKET RAPE

KYOU KARA MAOU RAPE

AVATAR RAPE

FINAL FANTASY RAPE [WARNING: MAY CAUSE EPILEPTIC SEIZURES]

POKEMON RAPE

HIGURASHI NO NAKU KORO NI RAPE [That was a mouthful.]

LOVELESS RAPE [Duh. Ain't they all loveless?]

D-GRAY MAN RAPE

...and last, but not least...

EPIC FUCKING WIN.

Another Reason To Be Banned From The Intarnetz.

2008-02-22T21:22:00.000+08:00

Don't come here in the presence of your old folks, kiddies.

'Cause I'mma put some good ol' metal muzak on this shindig, hell yeah.

This just in from the news. 15 people have been hospitalised for consuming a fake sex pill, aptly named "Power 1 Walnut'. I'm not kidding; go Google it if you don't believe me.

So you could've taken it and got stoned instead of boned, and wake up in a ward a day later. All because you wanted some extra bang on your banger. Hilarious shit.

That aside, I wish to apologise about the sudden colourful outburst in my last post. It seems I have some unsettled issues still lurking in the far-off corners of my mind. It's not so much anger as blind rage and well, maybe insanity. I don't know. Sometimes when I get left alone and unmonitored for far too long, voices just flood in my head.

Okay, I know I'm talking crazy talk, but whatever. I'm seriously not kidding. Then other times, I find myself looking at crowds of people all funny, and suddenly wishing I had a sawblade...or something else...and run through them all, laughing manically and drawing blood from their writhing, screaming bodies...

And other times, I close my eyes and just visualise myself, an eight-foot tall beast, fur matted with sweat, blood and filth, feasting on the corpses of freshly disemboweled men, women and children. Then I'd run wild with the rest of my pack brothers, dashing through the forest undergrowth, roaring and howling in feral delight.

Bloodlust? No. Maybe it's my warped imagination, releasing pent-up feelings. It's better for me to keep all those feelings inside and hidden rather than taking it out on others. Because I have a way of dealing with these horrible wants, and most of you don't.

Then again, I tend to lose control over this...animal...inside of me. And that's when you REALLY don't wanna piss me off, because I can show you a side of me not many have seen. Warning signs include running away from the rest of society, locking myself in the toilet cubicle and staring at certain people all funny, my eyebrows furrowed and my head lowered. I won't talk much either. That's a big indicator.

And when you catch me behaving like this, be nice and gentle. It's for your own good.

Ouh. Mah. Fizzlesticks.

Guess what? I've just taken a look out of the window, and there's a FULL MOON.

Coincidence?

Maybe NOT.

I Feel Fucking Hardcore.

2008-02-21T15:24:00.000+08:00

So, I've been feeling extremely fucked up in the head and cold as deep frozen shit in the last couple o' hours.

Amazing how being alone with the beast in your head can fuck you up so badly.

Let's just let it all out here.

ifucking HATEYOU leave me alone why AM i even alive shit knows nothing kill you killyoufuckingKILLyou why I don't know;SHIT, GOANDFUCKING KILLYOURSELF YOU selfishstupidungratefulfuckingWHORE shoot yourselfinYOURFUCKING BIMBBLOWMEawayNONONONONONOTTHEBELTNOTTHEBELTkillmekillmekillmeHAHAHA, YOU DON'TCAREYOUDON'TKNOWYOUFUCKINGBITCHKILLMEKILLMEthere'sblack THERE'S A MONSTER MOMMY HELP ME HELP ME IT'S EATING ME MY FUCKING INNARDS ARE BEING EATEN UP HELP ME HELP ME AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA shit shit shit I dare you dare you double dare you don't you DARE RUN AWAY FROM ME COME BACK HERE AND LET ME KILL YOU TEAR YOU APART, blood; lots and lots. I need to kill somebody SOMEBODY GET THE FUCK OVER HERE AND DIE; I NEED THIS I NEED THIS I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I KILLED YOUR MOTHER AND YOUR FATHER AND YOUR WHOLE FUCKING FAMILY ALL IN ONE. HAHA! HOW DOES THAT SOUND, YOU SICK, PERVERTED SON OF A FUCKING BITCHFACED DOGFUCKING WHORE?! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH! IIIII DO NTTTTT NEEEEDD AANNNY HEEEEEEEELP HEEEERREEERERERERER III HAAAAAAAATTTETETETETETET YOUU AAAAAAAAAALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL

Bad Tiky, You Sonofabitch.

2008-02-21T10:51:00.000+08:00

I'm starting to think that it's becoming a habit of mine to make my own life twist and turn into a bloody Korean drama. I mean, seriously. I can't stop falling into potholes and then screaming for help(mostly from Shiren...sorry) only to fall right back into another one just half a foot away.

Why, Tiky? WHY?

It doesn't help either that I tend to be a tad too insensitive, like almost everybody says nowadays. To be honest, I already AM trying my best to be as soft and feely as humanely possible. Obviously, that's not working out too well. I'm...I'm a fucking ROCK.

And how does an almost emotionally-devoid lump of minerals cope with sensitivity?

Disaster, I tell you. Disaster.

It's not that I don't care. Hell, if I never gave a shit, why the fuck would I lie wide awake till 3 in the morning, worrying about how to break it to you? You're just so fragile inside; putting you next to an impulsive kid like me just doesn't work out. I'm far too thick-skinned for my own good.

I don't feel pain. More like mind-numbing guilt. I never meant to hurt anybody. I never wanted to. But sometimes, trying to avoid conflict just makes conflict itself all the more inevitable. Look at the League of Nations, for example.

I never meant for it to go out of hand. Believe me. I'm just doing whatever seems right at the moment. I know a lot of people think I'm selfish for doing this, but please, think. Hasn't anybody assessed the situation I'm in? I'm trapped between the devil and the deep blue sea. Either I do this, or I unwittingly lead on someone I never loved in the first place. It is never pleasant being the bearer of bad news. It is never pleasant making anybody cry. It is never pleasant being the one to break another's heart.

Especially when you don't really feel anything at all.

That is when my conscience fucking kills me.

Very Special Days Indeed.

2008-02-13T22:33:00.001+08:00

Oh no.

Oh no.

Oh no.

That dreaded day of cooties and plush, pink fluff has come back.

AGAIN.

And right on time with my periodical "Screw-The-World" moodswing.

This could make for some serious consequences indeed.

You see, during the above mentioned span of time, I have a tendency to do the most extreme of things. Because of the apathy felt towards everything and everyone, the same also applies to the general rules of society.

This also means the complete and total disregard of the basic expectations of a normal, stable citizen of Planet Earth.

Which, coupled with such a horribly mushy, un-Tiky-ethical event, might have very, very dangerous outcomes, usually involving out-of-character behaviour.

Such behavioural traits include a sudden rise in voice pitch, excessive skipping down corridors, and ear-splitting, screeching renditions of annoyingly cheesy love songs, a majority of which come from old, mouldy boybands.

God help you all.

Tag Replies, BITCH. >:D

2008-02-11T00:56:00.000+08:00

In chronological order, nothing more, nothing less.

Jonk
Goodness, I must've lost count on the number of times Mrs Loy's said that to me. Yep, I'm a rock that needs a real, hard shove to get up and going. Or you could just bribe me, that'd work just as well, or even better. What I need is that one, motivating factor, that zingy thingy, that...WHOOSH. And I'll be on my way. Yeah, 2008's been a fresh new page for me, and yes, WAY WAY WAY better than last year. I fucking WASTED the year before. Must get off my fat arse and go. By the way, I has not talked sicky with you in like, a gazillion years. My distant MOSSPian behaviour MUST show itself soon.

Squirrel
Dude, we came from the goddamned same freaky factory. Of course there'd be some similarity in the way we think, ne? True, this life is indeed mine to forge and form for my own, but you have to remember that Mother Dearest still plays a major part of my life still. I'm only sixteen. In her eyes, I'm still a damn dog on a damn leash. True, she is my mom after all, but how long can that love last? Singaporean dreams will stay Singaporean for a very, very long time, no matter how much the mindsets now have changed. But yes, I will try. I think I'll go aim for a good JC now. About my dad, I never gave him a second thought. It's just that everyone else seems to be under the impression that I'm like this because he left. And yes, Squirrel, things just wouldn't be the same without fuzzy old stickly you. I don't think you'll ever find out just how much space you take up in my life. I mean that. Carrots.

Wong
You...DO? I feel so touched. :D We MUST work hard, dude. JIAYOU! I wanna share the triumph with you when we get back our O-Level slips.

Bern
TLC? I AM NOT THAT SOFT, YOU MINISCULE LITTLE BEAR. >:( But thanks for the offer. You deserve a head patting, my equally wacky junior. (: And glomping is always welcomed by this kitsune.

Beaguin
Beaguin, you never fail to dispense some of the best advice. I think I'll go with the destination thingamajig. I see a guitar, a sketchbook, and lots of colours in the future. Seriously. Graphic design sounds awesome. So does animation. And in between, there's always space for a part-time band. Think musical rainbows and the like. Feel-good stuff. You know, I think this might work. As for the loads of luff...I can feel it already. XD

Shah
Ahh. Y'know Shah, you're not the only person who's had this peculiar little situation. And up till today, I am STILL baffled by this behaviour. I don't get why you'd even feel loserly around me; rather, I'm the one who used to feel loserly around people. You included, I guess. I had the impression that you were one of those uber-cool people who can slack and get away scott-free first time I saw you a couple of years back. It's just that I find it so goddamned weird that anyone would feel shy around me. I mean, DUDE. Take a good, long look. I'm a completely whimsical slackerdoodle lump. I'm...I'm a Tiky. No other way to put it. So long as you've got a sense of humour, aren't a bitch, are okay with cussing and won't rip me to shreds, you're an instant friend. So why the awkwardness? Ditch that, Shah. Maybe hanging out might even be a little fun. That is, if that's okay with you. (:

Natalie
Nat, there's one thing you should know about me, and that is art has NEVER been a sideline for me. It's always been the main story. I honestly can't see myself doing anything that deviates from what I love the most, even as a kid, even through the disapproving glances of my aunts and uncles. And yes, dear, ranting IS good. (:

Nade
Everyone keeps on saying I've got potential, I've got potential, I've got potential, potential, potential...the amount of potential in my body should've made me morbidly obese by the way everyone keeps on pointing it out. It makes me sound like a fat turkey of sorts. Horrible humour aside, you're right, maybe I was just distracted. However, I need someone to help me focus. It would be nice if you and a few more people could study together during recess or some other time, so that we'd all get back on track. God knows how much we need this shove. And thank you so much for all your concern; I just feel that sometimes, I don't deserve all this from you. It's more than I think I should get. In a way, I am kinda guilty. But just remember that you are an important figure in my life; not just because you said so first, but because I really do care about you. Don't ever forget that.

Stuck In Reverse.

2008-01-29T21:21:00.000+08:00

God, Biology's on Thursday. What the HELL am I doing online.

Yes, I've broken my resolution already. And it's still January.

But fuck that crap; I need to get this recorded somewhere my mother can't find. She's been rooting through my stuff lately.

So I've been feeling this odd sensation for a few days now. It's not so much a feeling than a lack of it; but still, I need to describe it somehow. It feels hollow. There is no squirming Squid in my chest anymore; rather, it seems to have manifested itself into a sort of skeletal, grayish void. Like a sort of cavern, except without the beauty. The only similarity between the two is the same old asphyxiation, in the same area in my chest.

It's like being alone, no matter where the fuck I find myself. Though I'm going to hate myself for sounding like a hypocrite, it's like being in some sort of despair of some kind. It's a fucking whoopsy-doodle that came out of nowhere. I refuse to cry, but holding it back gave me a small migraine today, during my Chem/A Math period.

It came so suddenly. The realisation that I was never going to amount to anything, the way I was going. How much money do artists actually make? No, seriously. I didn't even have enough to go to NAFA. And I doubt my relatives would want to support me. Who supports the aesthetically inclined paupers in paper-chasing Singapore? Only the tourism board. And the middle to upper class.

Reality check. I'm from the working class. With a mother who works a nine to five job at some soldering factory, an older sister who works as a clerk and comes home in the ungodly hours of the night, and two younger siblings who obviously are about the most unpromising fucks I could ever meet. Everyone's looking at me expectantly. They wanna see magic; they wanna see money. Everybody wants to see money, because everybody is sick and hateful and tired of the life we're having now. We hate dad. Fuck that bastard. So what comes first? Education.

Look at her, she's a gone case.
She was so bright in primary school; what happened along the way?
It was her father, that's what.
Oh, poor girl. Pity the mother; she tries so hard.

FUCK YOU, OKAY? He had NOTHING to do with it. If it was anything, it was me. I just got sick of everything and everyone along the way. I just got jaded. I just lost the meaning of it all. Why even TRY? Why even LIVE? How does that feel? You're shocked now, aren't you? I'm selfish, I know. Say it to my face. While you're at it, why don't you just go and fucking take a knife and stab it as well? I just want to die, just crash and burn and be curled up, stuck in some dark hole for the rest of eternity where nobody cares and nobody bothers.

Because the way I see it, it really, honestly wouldn't interrupt anybody else's life if I just slashed out my own.

I Am Going To Challenge Panic! At The Disco In Making The Most Ridiculously Long Title To Anything Created By Man, Which, I Think I Have Achieved.

2008-01-19T19:02:00.000+08:00

Hehe. I love parodying dumb poser bands.

Anywho-how, CCA Promotion Day went on as planned today. Well, not quite as planned. Turns out I wasn't late.

AMAZING!

I came at around 7.35, where Bernie was already setting up stuff. Set up laptops, played Through The Fire And Flames...then, with the advent of Nat the Bat, turned on MCR's Life On The Murder Scene.

It was fun at first...but got boring later...

So we decided to speed Gerard up and made the funeral dancers twitch violently in front of the mourners, making them look like a mass orgy...of sorts.

Then, I scooted around the school with Fai recording the various CCAs and brashly advertising Infocomm and LDS on the way as well. In my own speshul Tiky way, of course.

Which includes random shouting and excessive hand gestures usually associated with violence.

It was very boring, truth be told. Perhaps it was due to the fact that we, being seniors, were manning the whole operation shebang, but still. There was something missing; it seemed all too empty compared to the previous years of CCA Promo. Heck, why am I even reading in so deep into these things? I got my black Infocomm shirt. I should be happy. (:

By the way, Natalie, just because Shippou is a weakling compared to the others in the Inu travelling troupe, it DOES NOT MEAN that all kitsunes are useless. I'm a demon warlord, okizay. Yeah, okay, so I don't exactly have powers made for destruction. But I can trick anyone's ass upside-down and silly with my transformation. And I have weapons to wreak havoc with. Ch'yeaaaah.

Besides, who doesn't like teh fuzzy orange fox? :D

Imma Be A SOUL Rocker, Mama.

2008-01-17T19:26:00.000+08:00

HURRRR HURRRRRR HUHRRRRRHRHRHHRHR DRAGONFORCE BABYYYYY YEAAAAAAAAH

:D

You know what? Screw art. If I don't make it there, I'm going to rock the world like they do. Imma be a RAWWKSTARR.

That's my life's plan B.

Tiky the timebomb.

2008-01-08T21:28:00.000+08:00

Honestly, looking back at what I've done and how far I've gone, I'd say I've done a lot of things on impulse. There was this time I tackled a girl to the ground in primary school, smoked a Marlboro red one rainy Sunday afternoon, read my sister's diary, jumped down a flight of stairs to see if I could land safely, when I couldn't...

Yeah. Real dumb things.cr

One might ask, with exasperation and gentle pleading,"Why, Tiky? Whyfore must thou subject thyself to such brute dumbassery? WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU SO FUCKING STUPID, YOU FAT BASTARD?!"

Well, that's just it.

I have no clue.

It's almost as if there was some kind of invisible trigger mechanism deep inside my gut that goes BANG whenever something challenging my mortality comes my way, be it kicking the cat or dashing across the road before the green man even lights up. It's sort of like taking crack downed with Fanta and coffee. I GO LIKEA ROCKET GO SHOOOOOOM-SHOOOOOOOOM.

Then again, these periodic outbursts of random high-risk taking are just that - periodical. Or course, nobody knows for sure when they will pop up, but they can be detected with symptoms such as excessive jittering and loud exclamations of HAAAAAW SHYTE IMMA FEEEELIN' HIIIIIGH TODAAAAAAY! *gasping, choking noise*

So, do be on the lookout if you see an unnaturally happy Tiky bounding along the corridor, grinning dementedly at the walls.

It may just be the last thing you see.

TEH CARAMELLDANSEN!!!

2008-01-06T17:15:00.000+08:00

Let's just start with a video that kept me up till 3.30 am, dancing the Caramelldansen.

IT'S JUST SO FUCKING HAPPY, ISN'T IT?! I was doing the stupid dance before I went to sleep, after I woke up, after bathing, and out the door! KYYYYYYYYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA~

You just HAVE to dance the Caramelldansen! 8D

Hey-hey-he-he-hey Charlie the Unicorn Remix

2008-01-05T15:02:00.001+08:00

This is too freaking funny. It's my ringtone now.

Hope this made your day, lulz.

Inner Animal.

2008-01-02T20:12:00.000+08:00

You know, I've always found the mutant ability to transfigure into a different animal highly interesting. Call me weird, but the idea of being all furry and clawed is just the coolest thing in the world. That's why BeastBoy's my favourite Teen Titan.

Well, maybe without all the green. I'd rather be a flaming shade of vermillion.

But to be part animal? I've always wanted to be one, ever since I was a kid.

This might explain why I love werewolves so much more than vampires. I just don't tick with the whole sexy, pale-as-death, come-hither-and-I'll-suck-you-dry thing. Too serpentine for my tastes. They are cold, and undead, and irregularly angled. Like

But the loup-garou, the lycanthropes...the werewolf. Now that, you can feel the warmth, the pulsing blood, the wilderness. There's just so much fire under all that dark, matted fur, the same fire that runs within the predators of the forest. Passion that burns, and fuels the rush and thrill of the hunt.

This is also the reason why I'm a kitsune. ^_^

Anyways, I took this test on a website. It says I'm a Wildcat, and possibly, also a Fox.

Try it out!

HOLY CANOODLES IT'S NEXT YEAR.

2007-12-31T00:59:00.000+08:00

Aw, crap.

I wasted the whole of this year on stupid, meaningless things.

Well, whatever. I think I'm gonna start on my New Year's Resolutions List!

TIKY'S NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTIONS LIST

Hooray!

1. I will not leave homework until the next day to finish it 5 minutes before class.

Yeah, well, seeing as how the O's are next year, I can't exactly do this shit anymore, now can I?

2. I will not roundhouse kick my younger siblings, no matter how much they annoy me.

Okay, maybe I'll just flick their ears or something for a change.

3. I will do the dishes should there be any in the sink at the current moment I am in the vicinity of said sink.

Then again, I'm always the one doing dishes in the end.

4. I will cuss less.

Due to the fact some STOOPID TWAT hates me cause I say motherfucker. How gay.

5. I will spend more time reading my textbooks than reading Marvel/DC comics.

That doesn't mean I'm trashing my Uncanny X-Men and Teen Titans comics, though. ;)

6. I will not give the security guard at the school gate my trademark mule stare anymore.

But I'll still call him a fag behind his back.

7. I will love myself more.

...but...what's there to love? ):

8. I will not chow down like a pig and fail to chew properly.

...unless, of course, if it's pizza.

9. I will not ogle at any more attractive people.

...unless they check me out first.

10. I will only surf the net on weekends and Wednesdays.

THANK GOD FOR INFOCOMM! *hugs the monitor*

The Ten Gamer Commandments.

2007-12-18T22:37:00.000+08:00

'Nuff said.

Gentlemen, Fire Your Weapons.

2007-12-15T23:57:00.000+08:00

Fuck you.

Fuck you.

Fuck you.

I hope you explode from your own loser stench. I'd gladly snipe your fucking head off your fucking shoulders, but then I'd get locked up for manslaughter. I tried being nice to you. Nobody can deny that. You're a fucking schizo who doesn't know how to take a fucking JOKE. You can't even TRY to be a friend, let alone be civil. I don't see why I should even stand within a foot of you, motherfucker. Let alone talk to you.

You're unbearable to be around. You can't even come up with proper comebacks. You suck, to be honest. And honestly, sometimes you don't even make any proper sense.

I've wasted too long hanging with a fuckwad like you who walks around like they've got a whale stuck up their ass. I've left my friends in the dust cause I was blinded by your filthy face. I owe them a whole lot. Yeah, I'm in the wrong too. For sticking up for you when it wasn't even worth sticking up for. I realise I've never exactly been happy in your company. Like a friend of mine said, when you're not angry with me, you're about to be angry. When you're not about to get angry, you already are angry with me.

It never fucking ends!

YOU = BITCH OF EXTREME COCKSUCKING

Sure, maybe you're right. Maybe I don't have any true friends. But whatever; I'm ten times the person you'll ever hope to be, and then some. And the people I love? Way better than you.

So long, dickhead, and I hope you trip over your own feet and get run over by a giant truck.

My Chemical Romance, BITCH.

2007-12-11T12:58:00.000+08:00

Pics from the MCR contest about a month ago or so. Oooooh. I can't believe I'm finally gonna rock out with 'em tonight! Yeeeehaaaaaaaaw! And, and, MCR! It's gonna be totally wicked I tell you. I am gonna get my masterpiece signed by them. It makes me essplowde with sheer excitedness. I think I'll go scream myself out now.

(:

JEENGEL BEHLZ.

2007-12-10T01:29:00.000+08:00

It's December again! Yeah, yeah, I don't celebrate the damn holiday, but just look at all the lovely Christmassy events in all thse online games. Gahd. The mere thought of freebies makes me feel like dancing around like Barbie As The Island Whorefag. I just got meself plenty of nice event items in KOL...which will, of course, fetch me some awesome moolah in a year or two to come. Heheh. Noobs.

Also, the old Christmas songs are ringing in the supermarkets again. I like them dumb jingles. Hehe. They make you all happy and smiley again, especially if you're having a shitty day.

Speaking of supermarkets, I was at Shop N Save the other day with my cousin, buying breakfasty stuff like Cookie Crisps and milk and that shit, when the dude dropped a carton of Magnolia Milk onto the floor. It went something like -PLOT- and splattered the moo moo juice all over. So, being the smart idiot that I was, I quickly kicked the carton under the standing shelves, ran to the counter to pay up and got our asses the hell out of the store, where we started laughing like fucked-up maniacs as soon as we were at least 5782495649 miles away from our evil deed.

Other people thought we were mad.

But hey, we escaped...WITH the security cams all over the place. I make a gewd ninja, no?

On the topic of ninjas, let's just make it clear that pirates PWN their asses any day, and that werewolves rock by default. Yes, even against those pale gaywads you chicklit-obsessed teenage fangirls call vampires.

-prepaers for the oncoming slew of brimstone and hellfire-

Right them. So five minutes ago, I was just flipping through Facebook when I realised I had a mass invite to some 2oo8 countdown party hosted by people whom I might have wronged a year ago by accidentally falling over their legs and squishing half of them. Though the idea of a party filled with people whom I haven't even met, let alone barely KNOW, is rather terrifying, there IS booze involved.

Now, some of my more religious friends reading this post might stand aghast at the idea of alcohol consumption, but then again, I never have been the most religious kid in the entire universe so cut me some slack please guys I'm just a kid.

Besides, I've always wanted to get wasted just once in my life.
The word "once" may or may not be replaced by an adverb of higher numerical value later on in life.

Isn't life fun?

Tests, tests, tests!

2007-11-28T15:03:00.000+08:00

You Are a Werewolf

You're unpredictable, moody, and downright freaky.

You seem sweet and harmless, until you snap. Then you're a total monster.

Very few people can predict if you're going to be Dr. Jekyll or Mr. Hyde.

But for you, all your transformations seem perfectly natural.

Your greatest power: Your ability to tap into nature

Your greatest weakness: Lack of self control

You play well with: Vampires

What Kind of Monster Are You?

What Your Favorite Color Orange Says About You:

Joyful --- Enthusiastic --- Optimistic

Outgoing --- Accepting --- Confident

Loud --- Unruly --- Impulsive

What Does Your Favorite Color Say About You?

You Are the Very Gay Winnie the Pooh!

Come on, he doesn't wear pants!

And he's a little too obsessed with Christopher Robin

What Gay Childhood Icon Are You?

You Are 22% Feminine, 78% Masculine

You are in touch with your masculine side.

You are not overly sensitive and not easily moved.

Occasionally, though, something will get through and touch your heart!

Are You Masculine or Feminine?

You Are 4: The Individualist

You are sensitive and intuitive, with others and yourself.

You are creative and dreamy... plus dramatic and unpredictable.

You're emotionally honest, real, and easily hurt.

Totally expressive, others always know exactly how you feel.

At Your Best: You are inspired, artistic, and introspective. You know what you're thinking, and you can communicate it well.

At Your Worst: You are melancholy, alienated, and withdrawn.

Your Fixation: Envy

Your Primary Fear: To have no identity

Your Primary Desire: To find yourself

Other Number 4's: Alanis Morisette, Johnny Depp, J.D. Salinger, Jim Morrison, and Anne Rice.

What Number Are You?

You Will Die at Age 70

You're pretty average when it comes to how you live...

And how you'll die as well.

What Age Will You Die?

Your Birthdate: February 10

Independent and dominant, you tend to be the alpha dog in most situations.

You're very confident, and hardly anything ever shakes you.

Mundane tasks tend to drain you - you prefer to be making great plans.

You are quite original. When people don't "get" you, it bothers you a lot.

Your strength: Your ability to gain respect

Your weakness: Caring too much what others think

Your power color: Orange-red

Your power symbol: Letter X

Your power month: October

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Your Summer Anthem is Best Of You by the Foo Fighters

"I've got another confession my friend

I'm no fool

I'm getting tired of starting again

Somewhere new"

While you may seem bright on the outside, your insides have a distinct angst flavor.

What's Your 2005 Summer Anthem?

What Your Dreams Mean...

Your dreams seem to show that you're very preoccupied with your fears and problems.

These bad dreams indicate that you need to spend more time on your issues during the day.

Your dreams tend to reflect your insecurities.

You have a very vivid imagination and a rich creative mind.

You secretly want to hide your dreams from your waking mind.

What Do Your Dreams Mean?

Musical Disaster.

2007-11-28T13:35:00.000+08:00

My grey matter is slowly turning to mush.

There is proof.

I've been listening to my dusty old music CDs of the 90s.

Yeah, you read that right. The ol' faves like the horrendously gay Backstreet Boys, even gayer Westlife, and Aqua(their name just about sums up the homo quotient). Might as well start bopping my head to the Scissor Sisters.

Even more terrifying is the fact that I am now HOOKED onto Lazytown, what with the rainbow costumes and catchy music. But it makes me feel like a fat lump of lard whenever I watch Sportacus jump around like a caffeine-induced Energizer bunny. Magnus Scheving is teh hypurr. I must take a leaf out of his book and start bouncing off the walls. I feel the flab piling up.

I've even gone to the extreme of putting the Bing Bang song on loop. I don't get it. It's so addictive. Oh my goose. WHEEE! All the songs on Lazytown are a glorious orgy of techno, rock and pop. The PERFECT anti-emo. Which is why I love the show...even though by demographics, I'm waaaay out of the target age group...but who gives a shit? It makes MY day.

Then again, you shouldn't have much to worry. I've been stocking up on Lordi and Divine Heresy to balance out the fluffy meter so that it doesn't go out of hand. I doubt you'd want to see me all high-pitched and girly. With pink. I shudder at the thought.

Ah well, on a final note, I've made a video for fun. It's me dancing to some BSB song. I'll upload it after editing. XD

The Sloth Syndrome.

2007-11-21T20:15:00.000+08:00

KUMQUATS.

So.

What have you people been up to these holidays?

I know I've done nothing.

I haven't even started on my homework yet.

I feel so slow.

Whoo. Slowww.

*recharges on some Coke*

Right, then. The only exciting thing that's happened to me so far in the merry month of November was spending the morning in a pub in Clarke Quay. Now, before anybody starts screaming "IMMORAL HUSSY!" let me explain that the iDA Singapore organised the Infocomm Club Awards '07 at the place.

So basically, we did nerd stuff. Mmhmm.

I ran into Agassi in the place, but he just ran away as I was saying hi. Maybe I forgot the deodorant.

Or maybe it was due to the fact that he had company. I could've sworn I saw Veronica there. And I don't think she's forgiven me yet for tackling her in P4 and then calling her a 'bloody specky' in chinese(even though she wasn't wearing spectacles) in P6. Blame Jack Neo for the sudden stroke of inspiration.

Oh well.

MCR's coming! Oooh. I just need to hang on for a few more weeks...

I'm dead broke now. Still waiting for my sister's payday to come round. She owes me moolah.

So, After Months Of Cyber-Abandonment...

2007-11-20T08:59:00.000+08:00

...I have finally decided to update my blog.

*crowd goes wild with excitement*

Thank you, thank you.

I luff Kurt Cobain.

My Personality Type/Multiple Intelligences

2007-10-21T17:31:00.001+08:00

Well, looky there! I'm an ENGINEER. Which is extremely queer, seeing as how this little Tiky failed both her Sciences and Maths. Funny, cause I KNOW I didn't lie on those damn tests.

EDIT: I took it again. It says I'm a dreamer now.

DON'T TAKE THIS TEST.

Crazy Indian Video(Benny Lava)

2007-10-18T16:29:00.001+08:00

Another Tamil parody vid by the legendary BUFFALAX! This one is a little oversexed, if you ask me. xD

Study Intermission Pt. 2

2007-09-28T14:42:00.001+08:00

An Indian 'Thriller' with mock english lyrics. Surprisingly, this came out way before Michael Jackson's version.

Study Intermission.

2007-09-26T16:30:00.001+08:00

Foamy the Squirrel. Classic crackshit.

When you realise you're the smartest in your tribe.

2007-09-17T00:05:00.000+08:00

I got a rude reminder today about the fact that the Sinagporean academic journey awaits no man.

Or woman.

Or queer(If that's where you're inclined to).

We are all facing our Sec 3 EOYs.

Shock and horror, people. Shock and horror. Bring on the scream queens, the bawlers and the terminally insane muggers.

Me? I'll be working my way up slowly to improving those grades. Definitely gonna get a B for Maths this final term. I bet my last buck on it. I've worked my ass off far too hard over the weekend to see it all go up in rancid, putrid, smoke.

So far, the only encouraging sign I've gotten is the fact that I've improved by at least 12 points. Amazing? Not quite, if you consider the fact that my previous score was 35...which would put my current L1R5 to 23. I can practically hear the tsk-tsking of those educational zealots and their similarly nerdy companions. Well, suck monkey balls, Spock-bitches. I'm gonna make this year, even if I'll be sent kicking and screaming just to study properly.

On a lighter note, I found a certain someone quite attractive. I just hope the latter's partner doesn't beat me to a gasping, bloody pulp for saying that.

Or maybe it's the caffeine again. Sigh.

I need to get a life.

Turncoats and tranquilizers

2007-09-16T00:53:00.000+08:00

Who am I?

I am Atiqah.

I am Tiky.

I am Anthony.

I am Antoinette.

I am Aegis.

I am Asheron.

I am nothing but a figment of my own imagination.

Nothing but a shell with the contents tossed into the nearest reclamation facility, to be turned into fuel, scrap metal and possibly, bits of vital intelligence to be remade into something worthwhile, like a scholar. Or a scribe

An empty, hollow shell.

Where have I gone to?

I have been divided.

I try to please, and give it all, and yet it all

falls

apart.

Because I have divided.

Shunned for where I have been separated into, where I believe I belong, and yet, I cannot fit into any corner or crevice. I have changed, and shifted, and morphed, so much so that my origins are nothing more than foreign territory.

Why have I disappeared?

I was weak.

Weak, and longing for the small space in between enamoured arms that even the youngest of children and the wisest of elders crave.

It was blind love, and the wish to wipe away tears and discontent.

It was blind love.

Indeed, indeed.

2007-09-06T13:37:00.000+08:00

And now that I have abandoned my old blog, I have set up a new one! Charming.

Of course, I originally wanted to use my MSN Space, but somehow or other, I ended up publishing here.

Oh well!

I'll try do that when I get some coding know-how embedded in my little noggin.