MOVED.

With me being the nonsensical moron that I am, I have decided to join Project Blook and sell my soul to this cause.

Well, not exactly.

But I’ll be blogging with a purpose now; that is, in the far-fetched hope that it might one day become a blog-book – hence the term blook.

The one question is, does anybody even WANT to read it?

I wonder.

Oh well. I’ve set it up and all, but I’ve yet to plant the maiden post seed in the belly of the blog. You can still tag, but click on the comments link – I don’t wanna use a tagboard any longer. Too many annoying ads.

So, goodbye, people of the world, and greet this waste of e-space.

See ya.

Some Birthday Calculator Report.

10 February 1992

Your date of conception was on or about 20 May 1991 which was a Monday.

You were born on a Monday
under the astrological sign Aquarius.
Your Life path number is 6.

Your fortune cookie reads:
Your money worries are over! Your new job will bring you a huge increase in income.

Life Path Compatibility:
You are most compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 3, 6 & 9.
You should get along well with those with the Life Path numbers 2, 4, 8, 11 & 22.
You are least compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 1, 5 & 7.

The Julian calendar date of your birth is 2448662.5.
The golden number for 1992 is 17.
The epact number for 1992 is 25.
The year 1992 was a leap year.

Your birthday falls into the Chinese year beginning 2/4/1992 and ending 1/22/1993.
You were born in the Chinese year of the Monkey.

Your Native American Zodiac sign is Otter; your plant is Fern.

You were born in the Egyptian month of Parmuthy, the fourth month of the season of Poret (Emergence - Fertile soil).

Your date of birth on the Hebrew calendar is 7 AdarI 5752.
Or if you were born after sundown then the date is 8 AdarI 5752.

The Mayan Calendar long count date of your birthday is 12.18.18.14.18 which is
12 baktun 18 katun 18 tun 14 uinal 18 kin

The Hijra (Islamic Calendar) date of your birth is Monday, 6 Sha'ban 1412 (1412-8-6).

The date of Easter on your birth year was Sunday, 19 April 1992.
The date of Orthodox Easter on your birth year was Sunday, 26 April 1992.
The date of Ash Wednesday (the first day of Lent) on your birth year was Wednesday 4 March 1992.
The date of Whitsun (Pentecost Sunday) in the year of your birth was Sunday 7 June 1992.
The date of Whisuntide in the year of your birth was Sunday 14 June 1992.
The date of Rosh Hashanah in the year of your birth was Monday, 28 September 1992.
The date of Passover in the year of your birth was Saturday, 18 April 1992.
The date of Mardi Gras on your birth year was Tuesday 3 March 1992.

As of 6/20/2008 11:09:45 PM EDT
You are 16 years old.
You are 196 months old.
You are 853 weeks old.
You are 5,975 days old.
You are 143,423 hours old.
You are 8,605,389 minutes old.
You are 516,323,385 seconds old.

Celebrities who share your birthday:

Lance Berkman (1976)	Laura Dern (1967)	Cliff Burton (1962)
George Stephanopoulos (1961)	Greg Norman (1955)	Mark Spitz (1950)
Roberta Flack (1939)	Robert Wagner (1930)	Leontyne Price (1927)
Lon Chaney, Jr. (1906)	Bertolt Brecht (1898)	Jimmy Durante (1893)
Boris Pasternak (1890)

Top songs of 1992

End of the Road by Boyz II Men	Baby Got Back by Sir Mix-a-Lot
Jump by Kris Kross	Save the Best for Last by Vanessa Williams
Baby-Baby-Baby by TLC	Tears In Heaven by Eric Clapton
My Lovin' (You're Never Gonna Get It) by En Vogue	Under the Bridge by Red Hot Chili Peppers
All 4 Love by Color Me Badd	Just Another Day by Jon Secada

Your age is the equivalent of a dog that is 2.3385518590998 years old. (Life's just a big chewy bone for you!)

Your lucky day is Saturday.
Your lucky number is 4 & 8.
Your ruling planet(s) is Saturn & Uranus.
Your lucky dates are 1st, 10th, 19th, 28th.
Your opposition sign is Leo.
Your opposition number(s) is 1.

Today is not one of your lucky days!

There are 235 days till your next birthday
on which your cake will have 17 candles.

Those 17 candles produce 17 BTUs,
or 4,284 calories of heat (that's only 4.2840 food Calories!) .
You can boil 1.94 US ounces of water with that many candles.

In 1992 there were approximately 4.1 million births in the US.
In 1992 the US population was approximately 248,709,873 people, 70.3 persons per square mile.
In 1992 in the US there were 2,362,000 marriages (9.2%) and 1,215,000 divorces (4.8%)
In 1992 in the US there were approximately 2,148,000 deaths (8.6 per 1000)
In the US a new person is born approximately every 8 seconds.
In the US one person dies approximately every 12 seconds.

In 1992 the population of Australia was approximately 17,581,284.
In 1992 there were approximately 264,151 births in Australia.
In 1992 in Australia there were approximately 114,752 marriages and 45,729 divorces.
In 1992 in Australia there were approximately 123,660 deaths.


Your birthstone is Amethyst

The Mystical properties of Amethyst

Amethyst is used to increase spiritually

Some lists consider these stones to be your birthstone. (Birthstone lists come from Jewelers, Tibet, Ayurvedic Indian medicine, and other sources)

Bloodstone, Onyx, Moonstone

Your birth tree is

Cedar, the Confidence

Of rare beauty, knows how to adapt, likes luxury, of good health not in the least shy, tends to look down on others, self-confident, determined, impatient, wants to impress others, many talents, industrious, healthy, optimism, waiting for the one true love, able to make quick decisions.

There are 188 days till Christmas 2008!
There are 201 days till Orthodox Christmas!

The moon's phase on the day you were
born was waxing crescent.

Copyright © 2006 Paul R. Sadowski (http://www.paulsadowski.com)

DeviantArt Quiz Generator!

So I came across this quiz generator on Deviant Art.

Pick 10 people:

Natalie

Joanna

Azryl

Bernadette

Shiren

Shoba

Serinder

Siaw Ee

Nadiah

Me

1. If Joanna were to play in a movie, what would her character be?

She would be he schizophrenic little girl who goes around butchering random people on the street, all the while laughing at random objects. Yes. It suits her.

2. What’s Nadiah’s opinion on cheese?

“What? SO RANDOM! HAHOHAHEOEHOEHOAHOEHOAOEHEHEHEHEHAHEHAH!”

3. What do you think about Limin?

Limin is my dead ex-lover who has a dangerous obsession over anime pretty boys and their real-life Japanese counterparts. She has a damn good chokehold and hits hard, despite being quite an accident and sickness-prone person. Limin is also a lemon. A nice one.

4. Who is Serinder?

Serinder is a fish-bird hybrid who is easy to amuse. She’s also quite sensitive. Serinder passionately loves Linkin Park and Milo to death and will go beserk if anyone disses them. She’s nice to have around for company. Serinder is also prone to excessive usage of the word “fuck”, completely freaking out, and bursting into ‘lalala’s when she is bored.

5. In a race between you, Shoba, and Bernie, who would win?

Shoba, most probably. But if we were allowed to completely dismember our opponents while running, then I say me.

6. What is one thing Siaw Ee isn’t exactly made for?

Impregnating other women.

7. What if you found out that Joanna was secretly an alien plotting to take over the world together with Shiren?

The first part, I’m not surprised. The second part got me upset. Shiren! How could you?!

8. Who would win in a duel, Natalie or you?

Hmmmmmmmmmmm. So far, they’ve all been draws. I still say I would.

9. What is one thing that you have in common with Nadiah?

We both like THE GIRLY MAN. :D

10. What would you do if Shoba and Natalie were going out?

I’d completely freak out and punch Shoba. Then I’d apologise and ask them to continue on their date. Afterwards, I’d ask them politely how on earth this happened, all the while trying to stifle my mad laughter.

11. What’s your fondest memory of Joanna?

Easy! During OBS last year, when we were all hiking. Then she and I started belting out random MCR songs. That was awesome fun.

12. Super fun adventure amusement park marathon with you, Azryl and Limin! How did it go?

I ditched them the moment we got in and wasn’t seen again until 10pm.

13. If Shiren and Natalie teamed up, what would they most likely accomplish?

I have no idea. Somehow, I fear that it would be plans for my downfall.

14. Oh no, Siaw Ee’s been kidnapped by aliens! What would you say the moment they got back?

“HOLY SHIT! WHAT DID THEY DO TO YOU?! AND WHY WASN’T I PICKED?”

15. Who’s Azryl dating?

He’s dating this saxophone player from a local SKA band. I’m serious.

To take the quiz, click here.

Tangerine Dream.

Dreams.

Do you continue chasing them even if the whole world seems to be conspiring against everything that you want?

No matter how much you want something, there will be the inevitable self-questioning once your ideals are challenged. You start to wonder whether you were ever meant to be in the whole scheme of things you've planned out in the first place. Was it ever right? Was it even wrong?

It's one thing if you're the only one feeling the pressure. It's another when someone else gets dragged down as well. Even more so when that other person is someone you care about the most.

I don't understand why you'd want to go through all this for someone like me. I'm not a good person. I never have been. I lie, I cheat; I've even stolen. It would've been so much easier for you to just drop everything and move on. I don't want you getting into trouble. I've told you; even if you left, I'd still be so, so very happy. At the very least, there's some part of you that believes now. At the very least, I have the memories.

But if you're adamant on staying, I won't stop you. I won't disappoint; at the very least, I'll try not to hurt. "She needs to get hurt", she told you. A small part of me fears this so much. I've hurt people before; I can just as easily do it again without meaning to. And that's the very last thing I want to do.

Sometimes I wonder what you see in me. You never seem to have a solid answer.

Not knowing that elusive redeeming quality is the very thing that fuels these questions. And I start to wonder whether I'm even worthy to hold on to the ones I care about the most.

But all that doubt and insecurity dissolves when I see you smile. In that small moment in time I can actually believe that there's something in me that you think is good enough to hold on to. In that small moment of time, there's nothing but sky, sunlight, warmth, and a quiet sort of joy.

In that small moment of time, I feel that there's hope for happiness yet.














Hohoemi mo namida mo subete wo

Uketomete ikiteku mirai ni.

FUCK! A QUIZ! :D

I'm still struggling to come up with real blog post starters. So in the meantime, I'll bore you all senseless with something I found on Audre's blog. Enjoy. By the way, Steph, you're gonna be in a section called "How I Met Some People".

YES.

I'm a copypasta.

So screw me already.


By the way, this thing is backdated. So some things might be different. Enjoy.

1. Who is someone you wish you could fix things with?
Too many to list down. But I'm sure they know who they are.

2. What does the last text message in your inbox say, and who's it from?
"Like i said, he'll be asleep so long as you leave around 11. What are you telling your mom?" The contact's saved as 'Green'.

3. What's a happy time you've had in the past week?
Wandering around Borders, losing track of time.

4. Is there anything in your past that you'd like to try again?
DUH. OBS, getting into a road accident, OBS, swearing loudly in a mean girl's face, OBS, getting yelled in the face by Mr. Zaini, OBS...

7. Who do you like to spend your nights with?
This person knows.

8. Are you an emotional person?
I have absolutely no idea.

9. Are you self-conscious?
No, I'm not. *pause* Does my hair look okay?

10. What's something that can always make you feel better?
Drawing, being hugged by people I like being hugged with, drawing, listening to kickass music, drawing, being with the people I like haning out with, drawing, listening to awesome jokes, drawing, being in close proximity with my significant other, drawing...

11. Do you keep a diary?
It's more of a doodlebook.

13. Do you tend to make relationships complicated?
I'm complicated. What more my relationships.

14. Who do you feel the most comfortable around?
Green.

15. Favorite flavor of Vitamin Water?
I've never had that before. Never even heard of it.

16. One thing you're looking forward to?
The day I get a WoW subscription.

17. How do you feel about change?

Most of the time, I'm nonchalant to change. But in actual fact, it does take me some time to digest the fact that the world around me is slowly but surely shifting.

18. What are you not looking forward to?
O-Levels. Duh.

19. What are your plans for your next birthday?
Um. Grow a little taller during the day?

20. Do you even care about your birthday?
...is it wrong to say no?

21. Do you think anyone out there loves you?
Redundant question. DUH.

23. Have you ever seen your best friend cry?
I've made my best friend cry.

25. Who's the second person on your missed call list?
Green, with 2 missed calls.

26. What is your favorite ring tone on your phone?
The Sharpest Lives by MCR, also my current tone.

27. What were you doing at midnight last night?
Lying twisted in bed, unconcious to the real world.

28. What is the last thing you ate?
Instant noodles.

29. Do you believe that everything happens for a reason?
Yeah. It's called fate.

30. What color are the curtains of your room?
White.

32. If you could push one person off of a mountain, who would it be?
President George W. Bush. Or the typical emo kid. One less moron on this earth, either way...

33. Where did you get the shirt you're wearing?
P5 Outdoor camp. It used to come down to my mid-thighs. It fits me fine now.

34. Is anything bothering you right now?
The fact that I'm too full of noodles to lie down.

35. What's the weirdest thing you've ever heated up in a microwave?
Ants.

36. Are you a cuddler?
Kind of. Sort of. Depends. But I can get very cuddly. Yes indeed.

37. Does anything hurt on your body right now?
Oh, you so don't wanna know.

38. Have you ever liked someone who treated you like crap?
Haha. That was a long time ago.

40. Have you ever seen a zebra?
In a zoo! It smelled like ass.

40. Are you offended by dumb blond jokes?
'Course not. I love blond jokes.

41. What happens tomorrow?
Stuff. Why'd you ask?

42. If you could go back and change something, would you?
I don't want to think about the past.

43. What does your hair look like right now?
Black, straight-ish, short and definitely reaching past my collar.

44. Has anyone disappointed you recently?
Nope. It seems I have, though.

45. Will this weekend be a good one?
Hope so.

46. How did you get the idea for your myspace name?
Atiq = Artique.

47. What is your favorite number?
300. THIS IS SPARTAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

48. Look to your right what do you see?
A wall.

51. Do you get attached to people easily?
Lol, I'm not a fridge magnet.

52. Why are you online?
To update my blog. Was watching 2 Gargoyles episodes before this on Youtube.

53. What happened a year ago from today?
Tried to call a certain someone on their handphone. Nobody picked up, even after I called thrice.

54. Have you ever been to Florida?
Nope.

58. Are you looking forward to tomorrow?
Hell yeah.

59. If you could ask God for one thing, what would you ask for?
For everyone to go to Heaven.

60. Whats one thing thats heavily weighing on your mind?
People. Lots of people.

SECOND

Last night, did you go to sleep smiling?
No.

Anyone told you a secret this week?
No.

Did you have a good day yesterday?
Not really...

Does your brother have a gal?
No. He's only eight.

What is your Brother's gal name?
Refer to the above.

Have you ever collapsed on the bathroom floor?
I've fallen, yes.

Do you play an instrument?
Guitar. Um. Does recorder count?

What is the reason behind your display name?
My furry name. And my current status.

In the next 4 months, what are you looking forward to most?
Getting OVER the O-Levels.

Name someone who said something interesting today?
Green, who sent me an interesting excerpt from Eclipse.

When is the last time you wanted to punch someone in their face?
A few weeks back. A certain magician's face.

What is the last thing you spent money on?
A bottle of Pringles Cheese Chips.

Whats your favorite drink?
Orange soda. But I drink plain water mostly nowadays.

Is the person you last hugged attractive?
Hell yes.

What do you hear right now?
Blood Red Sandman by Lordi.

How did you wake up this morning?
Was blinded by the room light.

Do you believe everything you hear?
No, but it does pique my interest.

Do you live near your best friend?
No.

Where were you at 11:45 AM today?
At the computer, watching Gargoyles.

Do/did you listen to your parents?
Used to. I rarely do nowadays. I'm a terrible daughter.

Would rain actually stop you from going somewhere or ruin your plans?
No way. I am unafraid of the rain.

Do you fight with your parents all the time?
It's pretty much one-sided. Mummy Dearest does all the work of shouting.

What is the best eye color on a member of the opposite sex?
Green. Or a mix.

Last time you cried?
Can't remember. A couple of months back?

Is it easy for others to make you feel awkward?
I guess so.

Who was the last person you commented?
Bernie.

What is something you want to do now?
Eat more noodles.

Are you happy with where you are in your life?
The greater part of me is. ^^

THIRD

Do you have the following in your
bedroom:
1. Condom:
Um. Why would I have one?

2. Cell phone:
Yep.

3. Chair/stool:
Nope.

4. Book shelf
Nope.

5. Dresser:
My mother's, actually.

6. Computer/laptop:
Yup.

7. Bags:
Everybody's bags in one bedroom.

8. Pictures:
Do my sketchbooks count?

9. Mirror:
Part of the fugly dresser.

10. Skateboard:
Threw it away last year.

11. Bed:
Yeah.

12. Clothes on the floor:
My older sister's, mainly.

13. Surfboard:
Can't surf in Singapore.

14. Smoke detector:
Nope.

15. Musical Instrument:
My guitar and my old recorder.

16. Hero:
Does a poster of Wolverine count?

17. Locking door:
Yep.

18. Bottle of water:
It's in the fridge.

19. Blacklight:
I want one, though I don't have it.

20. Medals/Ribbons:
A few. The rest are in a cupboard in the living room.

21. CDs:
In the living room, on a shelf. Not in my bedroom.

22. Flag:
Nope.

23. Stop sign/any sign:
Nope.

24. Real Gun:
I want one.

25. Cigarettes:
Yeah. My sister's. Don't get any ideas.

26 Pot:
Wish I had some.

27. Alcohol:
Nope

28. Books:
Too many.

29. Ps2:
NUU WAI MAN XBOX FTW

30. box:
Several.

31. Stereo:
Nope.

31. Television:
In the living room.

32. Lighter:
Yes. Again my sister's.

33. Gum:
I don't like gum much.

34. How many windows do you have in ur
room?
One?

35. do you fix your bedroom?
It's not broken.

36. What's on your walls?
Dust.

37. Has a opposite sex been in your
room before?
Of course. He lives in the same house.

38. Has the opposite sex been on your
bed?
Yeah.

39. Has the opposite sex slept in your
bed?
Yeah. Had to drag him off. I mean, it's MY sleeping mat.

40. Who usually sleeps in your bed
other than you?
Everyone else but my mom.

Black Orchid.

It's been a while since I last heard this song. Blue October's one of my most favourite bands; they're brilliant.



Lyrics:
Have you ever been so lonely
There's no one there to hold
Just pull me in or disown me
And then
Climb inside
My arms are open wide
Have a look inside

It is not that I am scared to learn
Just why I'm empty inside
Just hold my hand to show some concern
If I live or die
My eyes are are open wide
Help me look inside

I hear the water drip from the faucet
It's sweetly falling in tune
Who knew
I'm gently closing the closet
And I fall to the floor
And crawl to my room

The thought of ending it soon
Just let me sleep in my room

Hear me cry
Cry
Cry
Cry

No, I hear a knock at the front door
Don't come in
I try to look at you but I can't stop shaking
Leave me alone, just go away
Mother, I'm so scared
I'm so scared

An empty bed but all of my sheets
Are gone
They're wrapped around me and you
All is quiet but the drop of my gun
'Cause I...
I want to belong to someone
But maybe life's not for everyone.