MOVED.

With me being the nonsensical moron that I am, I have decided to join Project Blook and sell my soul to this cause.

Well, not exactly.

But I’ll be blogging with a purpose now; that is, in the far-fetched hope that it might one day become a blog-book – hence the term blook.

The one question is, does anybody even WANT to read it?

I wonder.

Oh well. I’ve set it up and all, but I’ve yet to plant the maiden post seed in the belly of the blog. You can still tag, but click on the comments link – I don’t wanna use a tagboard any longer. Too many annoying ads.

So, goodbye, people of the world, and greet this waste of e-space.

See ya.

Some Birthday Calculator Report.

10 February 1992

Your date of conception was on or about 20 May 1991 which was a Monday.

You were born on a Monday
under the astrological sign Aquarius.
Your Life path number is 6.

Your fortune cookie reads:
Your money worries are over! Your new job will bring you a huge increase in income.

Life Path Compatibility:
You are most compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 3, 6 & 9.
You should get along well with those with the Life Path numbers 2, 4, 8, 11 & 22.
You are least compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 1, 5 & 7.

The Julian calendar date of your birth is 2448662.5.
The golden number for 1992 is 17.
The epact number for 1992 is 25.
The year 1992 was a leap year.

Your birthday falls into the Chinese year beginning 2/4/1992 and ending 1/22/1993.
You were born in the Chinese year of the Monkey.

Your Native American Zodiac sign is Otter; your plant is Fern.

You were born in the Egyptian month of Parmuthy, the fourth month of the season of Poret (Emergence - Fertile soil).

Your date of birth on the Hebrew calendar is 7 AdarI 5752.
Or if you were born after sundown then the date is 8 AdarI 5752.

The Mayan Calendar long count date of your birthday is 12.18.18.14.18 which is
12 baktun 18 katun 18 tun 14 uinal 18 kin

The Hijra (Islamic Calendar) date of your birth is Monday, 6 Sha'ban 1412 (1412-8-6).

The date of Easter on your birth year was Sunday, 19 April 1992.
The date of Orthodox Easter on your birth year was Sunday, 26 April 1992.
The date of Ash Wednesday (the first day of Lent) on your birth year was Wednesday 4 March 1992.
The date of Whitsun (Pentecost Sunday) in the year of your birth was Sunday 7 June 1992.
The date of Whisuntide in the year of your birth was Sunday 14 June 1992.
The date of Rosh Hashanah in the year of your birth was Monday, 28 September 1992.
The date of Passover in the year of your birth was Saturday, 18 April 1992.
The date of Mardi Gras on your birth year was Tuesday 3 March 1992.

As of 6/20/2008 11:09:45 PM EDT
You are 16 years old.
You are 196 months old.
You are 853 weeks old.
You are 5,975 days old.
You are 143,423 hours old.
You are 8,605,389 minutes old.
You are 516,323,385 seconds old.

Celebrities who share your birthday:

Lance Berkman (1976)	Laura Dern (1967)	Cliff Burton (1962)
George Stephanopoulos (1961)	Greg Norman (1955)	Mark Spitz (1950)
Roberta Flack (1939)	Robert Wagner (1930)	Leontyne Price (1927)
Lon Chaney, Jr. (1906)	Bertolt Brecht (1898)	Jimmy Durante (1893)
Boris Pasternak (1890)

Top songs of 1992

End of the Road by Boyz II Men	Baby Got Back by Sir Mix-a-Lot
Jump by Kris Kross	Save the Best for Last by Vanessa Williams
Baby-Baby-Baby by TLC	Tears In Heaven by Eric Clapton
My Lovin' (You're Never Gonna Get It) by En Vogue	Under the Bridge by Red Hot Chili Peppers
All 4 Love by Color Me Badd	Just Another Day by Jon Secada

Your age is the equivalent of a dog that is 2.3385518590998 years old. (Life's just a big chewy bone for you!)

Your lucky day is Saturday.
Your lucky number is 4 & 8.
Your ruling planet(s) is Saturn & Uranus.
Your lucky dates are 1st, 10th, 19th, 28th.
Your opposition sign is Leo.
Your opposition number(s) is 1.

Today is not one of your lucky days!

There are 235 days till your next birthday
on which your cake will have 17 candles.

Those 17 candles produce 17 BTUs,
or 4,284 calories of heat (that's only 4.2840 food Calories!) .
You can boil 1.94 US ounces of water with that many candles.

In 1992 there were approximately 4.1 million births in the US.
In 1992 the US population was approximately 248,709,873 people, 70.3 persons per square mile.
In 1992 in the US there were 2,362,000 marriages (9.2%) and 1,215,000 divorces (4.8%)
In 1992 in the US there were approximately 2,148,000 deaths (8.6 per 1000)
In the US a new person is born approximately every 8 seconds.
In the US one person dies approximately every 12 seconds.

In 1992 the population of Australia was approximately 17,581,284.
In 1992 there were approximately 264,151 births in Australia.
In 1992 in Australia there were approximately 114,752 marriages and 45,729 divorces.
In 1992 in Australia there were approximately 123,660 deaths.


Your birthstone is Amethyst

The Mystical properties of Amethyst

Amethyst is used to increase spiritually

Some lists consider these stones to be your birthstone. (Birthstone lists come from Jewelers, Tibet, Ayurvedic Indian medicine, and other sources)

Bloodstone, Onyx, Moonstone

Your birth tree is

Cedar, the Confidence

Of rare beauty, knows how to adapt, likes luxury, of good health not in the least shy, tends to look down on others, self-confident, determined, impatient, wants to impress others, many talents, industrious, healthy, optimism, waiting for the one true love, able to make quick decisions.

There are 188 days till Christmas 2008!
There are 201 days till Orthodox Christmas!

The moon's phase on the day you were
born was waxing crescent.

Copyright © 2006 Paul R. Sadowski (http://www.paulsadowski.com)

DeviantArt Quiz Generator!

So I came across this quiz generator on Deviant Art.

Pick 10 people:

Natalie

Joanna

Azryl

Bernadette

Shiren

Shoba

Serinder

Siaw Ee

Nadiah

Me

1. If Joanna were to play in a movie, what would her character be?

She would be he schizophrenic little girl who goes around butchering random people on the street, all the while laughing at random objects. Yes. It suits her.

2. What’s Nadiah’s opinion on cheese?

“What? SO RANDOM! HAHOHAHEOEHOEHOAHOEHOAOEHEHEHEHEHAHEHAH!”

3. What do you think about Limin?

Limin is my dead ex-lover who has a dangerous obsession over anime pretty boys and their real-life Japanese counterparts. She has a damn good chokehold and hits hard, despite being quite an accident and sickness-prone person. Limin is also a lemon. A nice one.

4. Who is Serinder?

Serinder is a fish-bird hybrid who is easy to amuse. She’s also quite sensitive. Serinder passionately loves Linkin Park and Milo to death and will go beserk if anyone disses them. She’s nice to have around for company. Serinder is also prone to excessive usage of the word “fuck”, completely freaking out, and bursting into ‘lalala’s when she is bored.

5. In a race between you, Shoba, and Bernie, who would win?

Shoba, most probably. But if we were allowed to completely dismember our opponents while running, then I say me.

6. What is one thing Siaw Ee isn’t exactly made for?

Impregnating other women.

7. What if you found out that Joanna was secretly an alien plotting to take over the world together with Shiren?

The first part, I’m not surprised. The second part got me upset. Shiren! How could you?!

8. Who would win in a duel, Natalie or you?

Hmmmmmmmmmmm. So far, they’ve all been draws. I still say I would.

9. What is one thing that you have in common with Nadiah?

We both like THE GIRLY MAN. :D

10. What would you do if Shoba and Natalie were going out?

I’d completely freak out and punch Shoba. Then I’d apologise and ask them to continue on their date. Afterwards, I’d ask them politely how on earth this happened, all the while trying to stifle my mad laughter.

11. What’s your fondest memory of Joanna?

Easy! During OBS last year, when we were all hiking. Then she and I started belting out random MCR songs. That was awesome fun.

12. Super fun adventure amusement park marathon with you, Azryl and Limin! How did it go?

I ditched them the moment we got in and wasn’t seen again until 10pm.

13. If Shiren and Natalie teamed up, what would they most likely accomplish?

I have no idea. Somehow, I fear that it would be plans for my downfall.

14. Oh no, Siaw Ee’s been kidnapped by aliens! What would you say the moment they got back?

“HOLY SHIT! WHAT DID THEY DO TO YOU?! AND WHY WASN’T I PICKED?”

15. Who’s Azryl dating?

He’s dating this saxophone player from a local SKA band. I’m serious.

To take the quiz, click here.

Tangerine Dream.

Dreams.

Do you continue chasing them even if the whole world seems to be conspiring against everything that you want?

No matter how much you want something, there will be the inevitable self-questioning once your ideals are challenged. You start to wonder whether you were ever meant to be in the whole scheme of things you've planned out in the first place. Was it ever right? Was it even wrong?

It's one thing if you're the only one feeling the pressure. It's another when someone else gets dragged down as well. Even more so when that other person is someone you care about the most.

I don't understand why you'd want to go through all this for someone like me. I'm not a good person. I never have been. I lie, I cheat; I've even stolen. It would've been so much easier for you to just drop everything and move on. I don't want you getting into trouble. I've told you; even if you left, I'd still be so, so very happy. At the very least, there's some part of you that believes now. At the very least, I have the memories.

But if you're adamant on staying, I won't stop you. I won't disappoint; at the very least, I'll try not to hurt. "She needs to get hurt", she told you. A small part of me fears this so much. I've hurt people before; I can just as easily do it again without meaning to. And that's the very last thing I want to do.

Sometimes I wonder what you see in me. You never seem to have a solid answer.

Not knowing that elusive redeeming quality is the very thing that fuels these questions. And I start to wonder whether I'm even worthy to hold on to the ones I care about the most.

But all that doubt and insecurity dissolves when I see you smile. In that small moment in time I can actually believe that there's something in me that you think is good enough to hold on to. In that small moment of time, there's nothing but sky, sunlight, warmth, and a quiet sort of joy.

In that small moment of time, I feel that there's hope for happiness yet.














Hohoemi mo namida mo subete wo

Uketomete ikiteku mirai ni.

FUCK! A QUIZ! :D

I'm still struggling to come up with real blog post starters. So in the meantime, I'll bore you all senseless with something I found on Audre's blog. Enjoy. By the way, Steph, you're gonna be in a section called "How I Met Some People".

YES.

I'm a copypasta.

So screw me already.


By the way, this thing is backdated. So some things might be different. Enjoy.

1. Who is someone you wish you could fix things with?
Too many to list down. But I'm sure they know who they are.

2. What does the last text message in your inbox say, and who's it from?
"Like i said, he'll be asleep so long as you leave around 11. What are you telling your mom?" The contact's saved as 'Green'.

3. What's a happy time you've had in the past week?
Wandering around Borders, losing track of time.

4. Is there anything in your past that you'd like to try again?
DUH. OBS, getting into a road accident, OBS, swearing loudly in a mean girl's face, OBS, getting yelled in the face by Mr. Zaini, OBS...

7. Who do you like to spend your nights with?
This person knows.

8. Are you an emotional person?
I have absolutely no idea.

9. Are you self-conscious?
No, I'm not. *pause* Does my hair look okay?

10. What's something that can always make you feel better?
Drawing, being hugged by people I like being hugged with, drawing, listening to kickass music, drawing, being with the people I like haning out with, drawing, listening to awesome jokes, drawing, being in close proximity with my significant other, drawing...

11. Do you keep a diary?
It's more of a doodlebook.

13. Do you tend to make relationships complicated?
I'm complicated. What more my relationships.

14. Who do you feel the most comfortable around?
Green.

15. Favorite flavor of Vitamin Water?
I've never had that before. Never even heard of it.

16. One thing you're looking forward to?
The day I get a WoW subscription.

17. How do you feel about change?

Most of the time, I'm nonchalant to change. But in actual fact, it does take me some time to digest the fact that the world around me is slowly but surely shifting.

18. What are you not looking forward to?
O-Levels. Duh.

19. What are your plans for your next birthday?
Um. Grow a little taller during the day?

20. Do you even care about your birthday?
...is it wrong to say no?

21. Do you think anyone out there loves you?
Redundant question. DUH.

23. Have you ever seen your best friend cry?
I've made my best friend cry.

25. Who's the second person on your missed call list?
Green, with 2 missed calls.

26. What is your favorite ring tone on your phone?
The Sharpest Lives by MCR, also my current tone.

27. What were you doing at midnight last night?
Lying twisted in bed, unconcious to the real world.

28. What is the last thing you ate?
Instant noodles.

29. Do you believe that everything happens for a reason?
Yeah. It's called fate.

30. What color are the curtains of your room?
White.

32. If you could push one person off of a mountain, who would it be?
President George W. Bush. Or the typical emo kid. One less moron on this earth, either way...

33. Where did you get the shirt you're wearing?
P5 Outdoor camp. It used to come down to my mid-thighs. It fits me fine now.

34. Is anything bothering you right now?
The fact that I'm too full of noodles to lie down.

35. What's the weirdest thing you've ever heated up in a microwave?
Ants.

36. Are you a cuddler?
Kind of. Sort of. Depends. But I can get very cuddly. Yes indeed.

37. Does anything hurt on your body right now?
Oh, you so don't wanna know.

38. Have you ever liked someone who treated you like crap?
Haha. That was a long time ago.

40. Have you ever seen a zebra?
In a zoo! It smelled like ass.

40. Are you offended by dumb blond jokes?
'Course not. I love blond jokes.

41. What happens tomorrow?
Stuff. Why'd you ask?

42. If you could go back and change something, would you?
I don't want to think about the past.

43. What does your hair look like right now?
Black, straight-ish, short and definitely reaching past my collar.

44. Has anyone disappointed you recently?
Nope. It seems I have, though.

45. Will this weekend be a good one?
Hope so.

46. How did you get the idea for your myspace name?
Atiq = Artique.

47. What is your favorite number?
300. THIS IS SPARTAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

48. Look to your right what do you see?
A wall.

51. Do you get attached to people easily?
Lol, I'm not a fridge magnet.

52. Why are you online?
To update my blog. Was watching 2 Gargoyles episodes before this on Youtube.

53. What happened a year ago from today?
Tried to call a certain someone on their handphone. Nobody picked up, even after I called thrice.

54. Have you ever been to Florida?
Nope.

58. Are you looking forward to tomorrow?
Hell yeah.

59. If you could ask God for one thing, what would you ask for?
For everyone to go to Heaven.

60. Whats one thing thats heavily weighing on your mind?
People. Lots of people.

SECOND

Last night, did you go to sleep smiling?
No.

Anyone told you a secret this week?
No.

Did you have a good day yesterday?
Not really...

Does your brother have a gal?
No. He's only eight.

What is your Brother's gal name?
Refer to the above.

Have you ever collapsed on the bathroom floor?
I've fallen, yes.

Do you play an instrument?
Guitar. Um. Does recorder count?

What is the reason behind your display name?
My furry name. And my current status.

In the next 4 months, what are you looking forward to most?
Getting OVER the O-Levels.

Name someone who said something interesting today?
Green, who sent me an interesting excerpt from Eclipse.

When is the last time you wanted to punch someone in their face?
A few weeks back. A certain magician's face.

What is the last thing you spent money on?
A bottle of Pringles Cheese Chips.

Whats your favorite drink?
Orange soda. But I drink plain water mostly nowadays.

Is the person you last hugged attractive?
Hell yes.

What do you hear right now?
Blood Red Sandman by Lordi.

How did you wake up this morning?
Was blinded by the room light.

Do you believe everything you hear?
No, but it does pique my interest.

Do you live near your best friend?
No.

Where were you at 11:45 AM today?
At the computer, watching Gargoyles.

Do/did you listen to your parents?
Used to. I rarely do nowadays. I'm a terrible daughter.

Would rain actually stop you from going somewhere or ruin your plans?
No way. I am unafraid of the rain.

Do you fight with your parents all the time?
It's pretty much one-sided. Mummy Dearest does all the work of shouting.

What is the best eye color on a member of the opposite sex?
Green. Or a mix.

Last time you cried?
Can't remember. A couple of months back?

Is it easy for others to make you feel awkward?
I guess so.

Who was the last person you commented?
Bernie.

What is something you want to do now?
Eat more noodles.

Are you happy with where you are in your life?
The greater part of me is. ^^

THIRD

Do you have the following in your
bedroom:
1. Condom:
Um. Why would I have one?

2. Cell phone:
Yep.

3. Chair/stool:
Nope.

4. Book shelf
Nope.

5. Dresser:
My mother's, actually.

6. Computer/laptop:
Yup.

7. Bags:
Everybody's bags in one bedroom.

8. Pictures:
Do my sketchbooks count?

9. Mirror:
Part of the fugly dresser.

10. Skateboard:
Threw it away last year.

11. Bed:
Yeah.

12. Clothes on the floor:
My older sister's, mainly.

13. Surfboard:
Can't surf in Singapore.

14. Smoke detector:
Nope.

15. Musical Instrument:
My guitar and my old recorder.

16. Hero:
Does a poster of Wolverine count?

17. Locking door:
Yep.

18. Bottle of water:
It's in the fridge.

19. Blacklight:
I want one, though I don't have it.

20. Medals/Ribbons:
A few. The rest are in a cupboard in the living room.

21. CDs:
In the living room, on a shelf. Not in my bedroom.

22. Flag:
Nope.

23. Stop sign/any sign:
Nope.

24. Real Gun:
I want one.

25. Cigarettes:
Yeah. My sister's. Don't get any ideas.

26 Pot:
Wish I had some.

27. Alcohol:
Nope

28. Books:
Too many.

29. Ps2:
NUU WAI MAN XBOX FTW

30. box:
Several.

31. Stereo:
Nope.

31. Television:
In the living room.

32. Lighter:
Yes. Again my sister's.

33. Gum:
I don't like gum much.

34. How many windows do you have in ur
room?
One?

35. do you fix your bedroom?
It's not broken.

36. What's on your walls?
Dust.

37. Has a opposite sex been in your
room before?
Of course. He lives in the same house.

38. Has the opposite sex been on your
bed?
Yeah.

39. Has the opposite sex slept in your
bed?
Yeah. Had to drag him off. I mean, it's MY sleeping mat.

40. Who usually sleeps in your bed
other than you?
Everyone else but my mom.

Black Orchid.

It's been a while since I last heard this song. Blue October's one of my most favourite bands; they're brilliant.



Lyrics:
Have you ever been so lonely
There's no one there to hold
Just pull me in or disown me
And then
Climb inside
My arms are open wide
Have a look inside

It is not that I am scared to learn
Just why I'm empty inside
Just hold my hand to show some concern
If I live or die
My eyes are are open wide
Help me look inside

I hear the water drip from the faucet
It's sweetly falling in tune
Who knew
I'm gently closing the closet
And I fall to the floor
And crawl to my room

The thought of ending it soon
Just let me sleep in my room

Hear me cry
Cry
Cry
Cry

No, I hear a knock at the front door
Don't come in
I try to look at you but I can't stop shaking
Leave me alone, just go away
Mother, I'm so scared
I'm so scared

An empty bed but all of my sheets
Are gone
They're wrapped around me and you
All is quiet but the drop of my gun
'Cause I...
I want to belong to someone
But maybe life's not for everyone.

Some Random Fragment Of My Wild Imagination. AKA, Proof Of My Furryness.

"Great God." The bipedal red fox stood erect, his amber eyes fixed upon the great insectoid beast that towered several metres before him. He clenched his fists, sizing up his next kill. A wailing screech erupted from its gaping maw, thick ropes of slime dripping down from the serrated mandibles. The giant praying mantis, or whatever it was, looked down at Gilfox with pure contempt in all four of dark, beady eyes.

Gilfox grinned. The thing was going to be a great warm-up after his four-month long hiatus away from slaying. The curved steel blades on each of his arms were hungry for blood. He had taken a serious thrashing from his last mission where he and his fellow beast slayers had taken down a crimson auroch that had been creating chaos in the rural mountain village of Sh'ankurr. The big-ass bull had torn open a gaping hole in his left thigh, on which still remained an ugly scar, despite Jadine's best remedy for treating demon wounds.

A gargantuan claw came swiftly down onto Gilfox, snapping him back to reality. Enough dreaming already, Gil, he told himself. Timing himself just right, he leapt up on the mantis' scythe-like claw and sprang upwards from it, grabbing a hold of its overhanging antennae. The oversized insect shrieked in rage, swiping at the red fox with both of its deadly claws, but all to no avail.

Gilfox swung back and forth from the beast's appendages, gaining momentum, and then swung upwards, somersaulting onto the head of the mantis. This only served to further aggravate the monster, and it shook its head from side to side, trying to lose the infuriating furry creature perched on top. Gilfox hung on to a ridge in its exoskeleton with all his might with one arm, and used the other arm to hack away at it with his arm blade. Find it, he told himself. Find that goddamn weak spot...

But before he could tear through the tough membrane under the hard outer shell, Gilfox was thrown off the creature's head and sent hurtling through the air...then painfully skidding several feet on the ground as he hit it hard.

The fox gingerly stood up, coughing out dust and brushing off the dirt from his vermillion fur. The insect gazed upon him with its cold eyes and made a series of high-pitched screeches. It was laughing at him, mocking him. Gilfox glared up at the towering mantis, his eyes full of smoldering indignation. "Oh yeah sure, laugh now", he yelled, sprinting towards the monster at top speed, "but it ain't gonna be so funny when I tear your fuckin' ass apart!"

The mantis lunged for him, but Gilfox dodged its swinging claw just in time; using it again as a platform, he thrust himself up skyward, until he was several feet above the mantis' head. "Die, bitch", he muttered, forcefully stabbing his arm blades into the gap he had created.

With a horrible, dying screech that pained his ears, the mantis succumbed to the hands of death and fell with an almighty boom to the earth, shaking it entirely and causing a great cloud of dust to billow from underneath it. Sticky, green translucent liquid oozed out from its head cavity, forming a slippery cesspool around it.

Gilfox emerged from the cloud of dust, covered head to toe in grit, dust and giant insect slime. "Nice look, young'un", quipped Arkhan, grinning a wolf's grin.

"Shut up, old man", muttered Gilfox, shooting the older timber wolf the dirtiest look he could muster. "I didn't see you helping me."

"Hnh. Well, save up that energy of yours fer tomorrow. There's a bounty for th' head of Makirru, some demon that's been doin' shit in a village not far from base. We're goin' t'check it out at first light", replied Arkhan casually, scratching the back of his greyed head. "And go take a shower", he added. "You look an' smell worse'n shit."

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There you go. Gilfox Wyldephere, beast slayer. My fursona.

I'm such a furfag.

Career Profiling.

So, according to MOE's OSCAR system...

O S C A R
Orientation System for Careers

Top of Form List of occupations that match well with your Interests. Artist (Fine Arts) Artist, Commercial Author Child Care Assistant Designer, Graphic Executive, Health Promotion Manager, Gallery / Museum Playwright Teacher, Art Teacher, Music Visual Merchandiser/Artist, Display Bottom of Form

Top of Form List of occupations that match well with your Abilities. Architect, Landscape Artist, Commercial Artiste Assistant, Constituency (Liaison) Assistant, Constituency (Management) Author Buyer, Fashion Copywriter, Advertising Curator Designer, Interior Designer, Jewellery Designer, Product Developer, Internet Executive, Exhibitions Executive, Health Promotion Manager, Gallery / Museum Officer, Immigration (Junior) Officer, Immigration (Senior) Officer, Research Photographer Playwright Producer, TV Producer-presenter Stylist, Fashion Visual Merchandiser/Artist, Display Bottom of Form

Top of Form List of occupations that match well with both your Interests and Abilities. Artist, Commercial Author Executive, Health Promotion Manager, Gallery / Museum Playwright Visual Merchandiser/Artist, Display Bottom of Form

Copypasta Quizzing.

*high-fives Bernie*






Find your Celestial Choir

Weird.






What type of Fae are you?


*high-fives Bernie...again*




Maverick, hmm? Sounds interesting. Self-resilience? I'm raising my eyebrow at that one.

Your Aura is Violet

Idealistic and thoughtful, you have the mind and ideas to change the world. And you have the charisma of a great leader, even if you don't always use it! The purpose of your life: saying truths that other people dare not say Famous purples include: Mahatma Gandhi, Martin Luther King, Jr., Susan B. Anthony Careers for you to try: Political Activist, Inventor, Life Coach

What Color Is Your Aura?

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHHA...no.

You Are an Orange Crayon

Your world is colored with offbeat, confident, and stimulating colors. You have a personality that's downright weird - and you wouldn't change it for anything. Loud and expressive, you voice your opinions fearlessly and strongly. And while you have a strong personality, you can be friends with almost anyone. Your color wheel opposite is blue. Your confidence is something blue people truly envy.

What Color Crayon Are You?

Ohh yeahh. Orange ftw.

You Would Be a Pet Cat

Independent and aloof, you don't like to be dependent on anyone. And as for other people, you can take them or leave them. You often don't care. You live your life by your own rules. And you have deep motivations that no one truly understands. Why you would make a great pet: You're not needy or greedy... unlike other four legged friends. Why you would make a bad pet: You're not exactly running down to greet people at the door What you would love about being a cat: Agility and freedom What you would hate about being a cat: Being treated like a dog by clueless humans

What Kind of Pet Would You Be?

I'm not THAT cold. Wait. Am I?

In 1992 (the year you were born)

George H.W. Bush is president of the US Hurricane "Andrew" becomes the most costly in US history with $20 billion worth of damage Arkansas Governor Bill Clinton is elected President of the United States Riots break out in Los Angeles after police are acquitted in the Rodney King case An "Earth Summit" is held in Brazil to address global environmental problems Jay Leno replaces Johnny Carson as host of the Tonight Show on NBC George H. W. Bush becomes ill on a visit in Japan and vomits on the Japanese Prime Minister Mike Tyson goes on trial charged with raping a 1991 Miss Black America Contest contestant Amy Fisher, the "Long Island Lolita," is arrested for shooting Mary Jo Buttafuoco on the front porch of her home Toronto Blue Jays win the World Series Washington Redskins win Superbowl XXVI Pisstburgh Penguins win the Stanley Cup Aladdin is the top grossing film "End of the Road" by Boyz II Men spends the most time at the top of the US charts Mad About You and The Real World premiere Sailor Moon premieres on TV Asahi in Japan

What Happened the Year You Were Born?

Lol'd at the one where he puked.

Your Brain's Pattern

Your mind is a firestorm - full of intensity and drama. Your thoughts may seem scattered to you most of the time... But they often seem strong and passionate to those around you. You are a natural influencer. The thoughts you share are very powerful and persuading.

What Pattern Is Your Brain?

MAH HEAD'S ON FIIIIRRREEE.

Your 2006 Summer Anthem Is

Dani California by the Red Hot Chili Peppers "She's a lover, baby, and a fighter Shoulda seen it comin' when it got a little brighter With a name like "Dani California" Day was gonna come when I was gonna mourn ya A little loaded she was stealin' another breath I love my baby to death"

What's Your 2006 Summer Anthem?

DAMN, HOW I LOVE THIS SONG.


...aaand that's about it for now. I'll blog some other time.

And Suddenly It's Quiz Time!

Take the first letter of your first name....

A-Gangster


B-Punky


C-Sweet


D-Amazing


E-Emotional


F-Girly


G-Funny


H-Pretty


I-Retarded


J-Gorgeous/Handsome


K-Beautiful


L-Fabulous


M-Slutty


N-Preppy


O-Hot


P-Very Sexy


Q-Boyish


R-Hot


S-Sexy


T-Sexual


U-Ugly


V-Wonderful


W-Scanky


X-Bitchy


Y-Under-appreciated


Z-Over-appreciated

NOW THE THIRD LETTER IN YOUR MIDDLE NAME(if you don’t have one use your last name):

A-Wizard


B-Obbesser


C-Bitch


D-Surfer


E- God (ess)


F-Retard


G-Queen/ King


H-Slut


I-Girl


J-Goth


K-Nerd


L-Alcoholic


M-porn star


N-Punk


O-Geek


P-Skank


Q-Rabbit


R-Sex machine


S-Prince (ess)


T-Whore


U-Cry Baby


V-Jackass


W-sex god (ess)


X-Scared-cat


Y-Coward


Z-Chocoholic


Now, What Color Is Your Shirt?

Red- Who likes the Backstreet Boys


purple- Who thinks Earth is flat


Orange-Who likes to sleep in the fridge


Yellow- Who wants to murder you


Pink- Who will rock your world


Green- Who loves God


blue- Who has a huge butt


White- Who loves Ice Cube


Brown- Who Wears Big Sunglasses


Black- Who swears like a sailor


Gray- Who is taken


None-Who is a sexy beast




Apparently, I'm a gangster nerd who swears like a sailor.

Almost true.

IMPORTANT PUBLIC SERVICE ANNOUNCEMENT.

HENCEFORTH, NO CITIZEN OF EARTH SHALL PATRONISE ANY MCDONALD'S OUTLET IN ANY LOCATION ON THIS PLANET.

HERE I PRESENT TO YOU THE REASON FOR THIS MASSIVE BOYCOTT. ANYONE FOUND MAKING ANY FORM OF LIASON WITH PERSONS INVOLVED WITH THE MCDONALD'S COMMUNITY WILL FACE THE DIRE CONSEQUENCES.



...wait, too late.










Happy Mother's Day to all you moms out there, by the way. We kids may be such whiny bitches sometimes. Sorry 'bout that.

Of Things To Come.

These past few days have been a sleepy sort of sunshine for me. Ive been smiling and scritching a lot. Maybe it's the warm weather thats caused a build up of fuzzy sensations. Maybe it's the holiday vibes. Whatever the case, no matter how good it feels, the tingling feeling of more sinister things to come remains. Kind of like when you enter a dimly-lit area in Halo that has several ammo packs, and then the background music makes a sudden transition. You know, when you can even smell that Brute pack lurking in the map somewhere.

I wish I'd taken the mid-years. I have a feeling that the lack of stress would be my downfall later on in the year.

Speaking of which, it seems almost surreal that the major exams, the ones I've been preparing for almost four years now, are barely five months away. Not to mention that the comfortable atmosphere of being in this secondary school would vanish along with it. The familiar faces, smells, sights and sounds...all gone. Perhaps, if Im lucky, I'd manage to sieve out a few faces from the crowd of strangers, but even so, I'm not guaranteed a friend. More importantly, would I even get to a JC?

It worries me sometimes, when I lie awake in bed, before I shut my eyes and go to sleep. What lies ahead. Well, not so much my future, but the current obstacles hindering my path. That path, that journey everyone makes to find their own peak of happiness. Success. And whether I'd be satisfied with what I'd achieved on this planet, as I lie on my deathbed. It's the worst kind of death imaginable, having unfulfilled dreams beforehand. It's the sort of thing that would rouse spirits from their graves, causing them to wander aimlessly on the face of the earth.

But back to my main point. I wonder if I'd turn out like the people I look up to today. Would I stick to the ideals I had so fiercely defended in my youth? Would growing up, perhaps, force me to change my beliefs and adopt others? Would I change? In these four years, I have grown so much, and changed so vastly, that it scares me to imagine what my past self would think if she saw what I have become. Metamorphosis. In these four years, I have learnt a lot, and not just from stacks of paper and books. Maybe I'm young, and maybe I'm stupid, but I don't think I can deny the fact that time – and the people around me – have shaped me to become the person I am today.

Maybe it's just adolescent agonizing. Perhaps it's the mere transition from child to adult. But whatever the case, I think I finally am growing up, little by little. And though it scares me shitless when I stop to think about it, there's nothing much I can do but give the future a smile, and walk towards it with open arms.


And of course, with my eyes open too, in case I trip over a rock and fall on my face while walking there.

Silence.

Creep
by Radiohead

When you were here before
Couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel
Your skin makes me cry
You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
I wish I was special
You're so fucking special
But I 'm a creep
I 'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here

I don't care if it hurts
I want to have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul
I want you to notice
When I'm not around
You're so fucking special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here

She's running out again
She's running out
She run, run, run run
Run

Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You're so fucking special
I wish I was special
But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here
I don't belong here.


The Thief
by Relient K

I guess it's safe to say you're never coming back
And I understand why you wouldn't want to
I guess it's up to me to find a way to get to you

And I can't see you
Getting used to
Living in the midst of your perfection
And I'm so lost
How can you trust
Somewhere the sun is always shining

And there's just one last thing that I have to say
As we reflect on the mess of all this that I've made
It was cowardice that made me push you away
I was so afraid cause you were so much better than me.

A Sudden Wave Of Japanophilia.

My authentic japanese name is 羽鳥 Hatori (feather bird) 歩 Ayumu (walk, deeper meaning: walk your own way).
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You are a Chibi Seme!

You are the seme in disguise. Able to fit in and get along with uke and seme alike, you are able to get close to the uke on their level before exerting your dominance. This makes you at times manipulative and able to fool others about your true seme nature. Because of your harmless appearance, it takes the flamboyantly gay Flaming Uke to match wits and really bring out your aggressive side to expose you for the seme that you are.

Most compatible with: Flaming Uke, Badass Uke

Least compatible with: Dramatic Uke

What seme or uke are you? Take the experience at SemeUke.com, or find merchandise here.

You are "Excited"

What Japanese Smiley Are You?

It Are HURT. D:

Yes, well, in case some of you didn't know, I was hospitalised for 8 days for meningitis. I'll be on MC this entire week, but I can go back to school if I feel better within the course of this week.

By the way, Thursday's off, under strict regulations by Mother Dearest...sorry Nat.

It developed from a viral infection in my brain(I've gotten sick of the brain jokes, so shut up already, I know I'm fricken' retarded up there). Symptoms included a really ouchyfied headache that won't go away no matter how many godforsaken pills you pop, fever, nausea and/or vomiting, stiffness in the neck and/or spine, photo and/or phonophobia(heightened sensitivity to light/sound) and several others which I didn't get, and can't be bothered to type out anyways.

All the other symptoms listed above were experienced by Yours Truly. And believe me, it wasn't any fun. In the few days before my hospital admission to TTSH, I was shambling around with my head in my hands, groaning and moaning like a bitch. The people who brought me to the sick bay and the people sitting at the back of the class should know. I was bothering them with my griping throughout school.

Turns out that by some freakishly brilliant stroke of luck, I actually had a viral infection in my brain, which lead to meningitis. I'm far too lazy to explain how I got it, so search it up on Wiki if you like. The CT scan I went for showed negative for any growth, but the Neuroscience consultant was still doubtful, so I underwent a lumbar puncture.

It hurt like a bitch and made me bawl like one.

Well, all in all, I'm better now, but I'll still be suffering from migraines once in a while, because, well, it's a long-term sort of thing, migraines. By the way, the doctors tell me I've got low blood pressure, which explains why I've been having those blackouts every time I get up from sitting. I'm such a sick kid. Blehh.

Thanks to everyone who sent me well-wishes and visited me, especially Nat and LSE...what were you guys trynna do, break a record or something?



But srsly. Thanks.

Full Moon?

God help me.

I thought I was okay when I saw the moon yesterday and felt nothing, but it was only momentary.

The adrenaline rushes are starting to seep in, and I can't even see the moon yet.

So far, so good. I haven't gotten any morbid tendencies just yet.

But oh-my-GOODNESS, my head's going extremely trippy.

I need to run, VERY VERY far and FAST.

Mmmmmmphhhhhhhhhhh.

Yesterday was super awesome, by the way.

I'm still grinning like a mad idiot.

Or maybe that's just the lunar effect.







AAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH, IT'S LIKE SOMETHING'S ABOUT TO EXPLODE IN MY LEFT VENTRICLE BUT I DON'T KNOW WHAT.

Mmmmmmmmmmmmphhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

I've been trying to listen to soft music, but it does nothing.




I hope it goes away before Monday.

Two Quizzes, A Poem And Something Of An Incoherent Rant.

1.How tall are you? 163-164 cm. I have no idea why it fluctuates.

2. Have you ever been unfaithful in a relationship? Lol. Do I look like a frisky sort of person?

3. Do you own a gun? No, duh. I wish I did, though.

4. If you had a mental disorder, what would it be? Delusional disorder. Wiki it up.

5. How many letters are in your crush's name? Seven. No, sixteen. Wait, wait, six. Argh, forget it.

6. What do you think of hot dogs? They should come in smaller buns. And larger sausage sizes. I'm craving meat currently.

7. What's your favorite Christmas song? FRAAAAAWSTEEEEE THA SNOWMAAAAAAAAAAN...*goes horribly off-key*

8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning? Juice, but I never get it.

9. Do you do push-ups? Two weeks before NAPFA. Then I start panicking.

10. Have you ever done ecstasy? ...do I look like a junkie to you? Wait, don't answer that.

11. Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? ...moo?

12. Do you like the rain? Most days. It gets better when you're at home, all warm and toasty under the comforters.

13.Do you own a knife? Yes. *shifty eyes*

14. What do you smell like? Wet rags.

15. Do you have A.D.D.(Attention Deficit Disorder)? No, but I sure look like I do sometimes.

16. Full initials? S.AB.L

17. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment:

• Eating grilled salmon
• What time some person is going to call me
• How I'm going to fare for SPA

18. Name the last 3 things you have bought today:

• A pack of 4 AAA Batteries
• Grilled Salmon with Spaghetti and Potato Salad
• Breathmints

19. Name five drinks you regularly drink, in order most to least.

• Water
• Tea
• Milo
• Milk
• Cordial

20. What time did you wake up today? 6.10 a.m

21. Can you spell? Enough to save my life.

22. Current worry? Whether I'm gonna make it through the O's.

23. Favorite place to be? Outside, walking on my own.

24. Least favorite place to be? In the midst of a packed crowd.

25. Where would you like to go? The moon!

26. Do you own slippers? Yeah.

27. What do you think you'll be? A graphic novelist.

28. Do you burn or tan? Tan, but only very slightly. I'm far too dark to burn anymore.

30.Yellow or blue? Blue. Yellow sucks.

31. Would you be a pirate? YAAARRRR!

32.Last time your cell rang? 5.30 p.m...three missed calls. My phone was on silent...sorry!

33. What songs do you sing in the shower? Um. Stuff from Creed and Nickelback. I don't sing, I caterwaul.

34. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child? Oh, I remember when I was a little kid, after closing my eyes to go to sleep, I'd squeeze them as tight as possible so I wouldn't open them again. Because I was afraid of opening my eyes, and seeing the hollowed-out, badly decomposing face of a corpse, like I did in one nightmare.

35. What's in your pockets right now? Lint. :D

36. Last thing that made you laugh? Jeff Dunham's ventriloquist act on YouTube.

37. Best bed sheets you had as a child? These sheets which had squares in every colour of the rainbow on them. They made me feel all woozy.

38. Worst injury you've ever had? Jumping really high on my paren'ts bed, falling off in mid-leap and landing head-first on my skull. On the stone floor. God knows how I survived.

39. What is your GPA(Grade Point Average)? YOU SO DON'T WANNA KNOW.

40. How many TVs do you have in your house? Just the one.
41. Who is your loudest friend? All of them.

42. Who is your most silent friend? Tiggy. He never speaks.

43. Does someone have a crush on you? I ate some jellybeans. They tasted very nice. Sorry. what was the question again?

44. Do you wish on stars? I pray to God.

45. What is your favorite book? The Kite Runner. Still.

46. What song did you last hear? Our Song by Taylor Swift.

49. What were you doing 12AM last night? Spacing out, because I took a nap earlier on.

50. What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up? How much I didn't get to sleep.

51. Does anyone know your password to your email? Nobody. NOBODYYY.

52. What was the last thing you ordered at McDonalds? An apple pie.

53. Are you an emotional person? I really have no idea. I can swing from emotional to stoic just like that. It depends on what I'm currently thinking of.

54. Do you like your school? Very much. Yeah, laugh.

55. Do you believe in love at first sight? I believe in love. But not at first sight. That's called being horny.

56. Ever felt jealous of your friend? Sometimes. I'm generally cool with most people.

57. What was the last thing you did? Trying to complete this quiz. Still doing it.

58. Who is right next to you? My younger sister.

59. Who was the last person you ate with? Diyana. Then we got stuck under the umbrella bench, 'cause it was raining all around us.

60. What song are you listening to right now? Get Down by the Backstreet Boys. Yes, LAUGH.

61. How's the weather right now? Cold and rainy.

62. Last person who called you today? My mother. Again.

64. Last song you sang? Stop and Stare by One Republic. And as I said

65. Last time you danced? Sports Day mass dance practice for P.E today in the hall.

66. Lost a friendship over something stupid? I very nearly lost one of my best friends in primary school. But we're cool now.

67. Last thing you ate? Toast.

68. Been really depressed before? Is this some kind of trick question?

69. Faked being sick to miss school? Only when extremely necessary. *cough cough*

70. What time did you wake up today? LOL, REPEATED QUESTION.

71. Current taste? Fish. Don't ask why.

72. Who is the person that posted this survey? I got it from Bernie.

73. What are you wearing right now? Sec 3 class shirt and camo shorts.

74. Are you too shy to ask anyone out? I don't think so.

75. What is the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? ...nothing?

76.Where are you right now? Home.

77. What date and day is it? 19th March, 2008, on a rainy Wednesday.

78. Did you go anywhere today? School?

79. What did you do there? Some educational bullshit. And some studying afterwards.

80. How old are you? I turned 16 in February.

81. Are you mature or immature? I tend to display both traits.

82. Do you call your parents by their first name? Hell no. She'd skin me alive.

83. Are you an only child? Second in four siblings.

84. Where do you go shopping? I don't.

85. Do you like where you work? I wish I could start working.

86. Do you like books? Sort of.

87. Do you want to get married? The thought of holy matrimony scares the sh*t outta me.

88. To whom? I DON'T WANNA!

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Greed:	Low
Gluttony:	Medium
Wrath:	Medium
Sloth:	Medium
Envy:	Low
Lust:	Medium
Pride:	High

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...at least I'm not lustful.

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Warmth.

There are many things unspoken
which need not be said.
Silences are left unbroken
and prudence left for dead.
There are many things that do not need
a voice to take a form.
When emotions grow and start to take seed,
we break off from the norm.
Linked are our hearts to our minds,
with feelings in between.
So read my gestures, hark the signs
as I make my feelings seen.
I speak not a verse, read not a rhyme
as I sit here next to you.
I'll just slowly spend all of my time
showing just how true
this velvet joy, this quiet bliss
is as the blood that runs
through my veins as we once kissed
under a thousand splendid suns.

This is badly, badly unfinished. I need some help. Any takers?

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